cheer up my dear. everything is alright now. for those who have misunderstood you have already apologised too. know you had gone through alot this few days. i'm sorry wasnt there to help you much. people just assume things. as you know that sentences too. assuming is.. so dont bother about it anymore. move on with your life. some people are just too free to say such things. in fact everything is fine now, just someone is finding something to do to kill their time. ya. as long you 3 have clear the misunderstanding. dont be bothered about the others. ya. cheer up. i dont wanna see you shed anymore tears regarding this incident yupp. take care my dear. i wanna see my cheerful girl on monday. =D
this post is specially for you.*wink*

vonmissesyou.
0141am

i know it well myself how would this path be like when i've chosen it right from the start. how i wish i dont understand anything. how i wish i'm just glancing through without having any thoughts into it. everytime i got into that page. this feeling just comes by. i couldn't take control of my curiosity. i'm blaming myself whenever i left that sight. i'm already sinking and now i'm just putting more weights onto myself. what am i doing? i really dunno. i'm stuck. who's there to pull me up? i've been struggling for a long time. i didnt want to give up. cause theres always this little things that gave me the strength to carry on. no one can see it or feel it. all this might just mean nothing to anyone. but just me,myself. for now. i'm really doubting my own ability. i'm losing my sense of direction. i'm lost. i'm tired. really really tired. i'm thinking what should i do next. people do advice me. but do i get it? no! so whats the point of people giving me advice? i've always say i'll cheer up. ya. i do try. but afterall. everything just resume back.
i dont know if that refers to me. i wish its not what i think. i feel that everything just dont turn out fine for me. things just drift me apart as the time past. left alone in the darkness with no one around. slience is all i could hear. songs with tears is my company in the night.


1041pm

night life at fluid last night. the place was crowded with familiar faces. dont really like the atmosphere there. was rather small. but overall the music was nice. R&B played. was waiting for Cassie-me and you. finally played! by then was already resting at that moment. no orange band round your wrist equals no alcohol for the night. ya. was kinda weird at first with familiar faces around you in the same dance floor. but i guess most of us still enjoyed.

lots of things i wish to say. but i wont put them into words. just this sentence.
i appreciate it. thanks. (:

vonmissesyou.
0746pm

i'm use to my own elaboration. i dont know if its always right. but this feeling seems to be real. i cant take control of my own feelings. i'm just feeling so hopeless and lost. am i creating trouble and nuisance to ownself? i guess i am. i'm thinking why one is always dissatisfied. and some even ask for more. things wont always go the way you want it to be. come on. even sometimes if its not totally what you want. but at least you should appreciate it. not all will got the same opportunity as one. seriously i dont abhor anyone there. afterall its not one can take control of. and i have no right to do so. i guess i would only turn the whole situation go worst.
7th..i know i will never get to know.

i'm annoyed with my dnt project. i'm cracking my head every single moment when i step into the design studio. i'm stress and i'm stuck!! should i take that? i'm bothered with it. some said its not the same,dont worry. while some said, the idea was there. i dont have any confident in this year project. brghh. i really want to shout it out. march hoilday? haa. its fully booked with dnt lesson. project, project and project. thats just our "march holiday".
thanks for those who have help me today. you guys really help me alot. especially mus. i'm really grateful. thanks. anyway. dont be bothered about those problems too much. we are always there for you. (:
sigh~moodless.
i'm sick!!

vonmissesyou.
0947pm

my blog seems to be rotting for the past weeks. due to my lazyness. ya. i agree that my lazyness has started to take control of me. haa. i'm not letting this to happen ya. one said she can even read my last post right from the back. are you sure you can? haa. show it to me then.
met up with min last few days. ya. i felt kinda weird at first too. was wondering why. its hurts when i feel that way. maybe we shall meet up more? i've started to question myself will anything happen to this friendship? i dont wish too. i'll treasure this and i've made a promise that i will not break it. imissyou seriously.
the question asked that night make me stop for a moment. i couldn't answer it. i'm afraid to answer. cause i dont wish that to happen. it just seems like things really change according to time. i dont know what the reason behind it. what should i react and how should i be reacting? i'm just like a person who've lost the soul at the moment.
heading down to fluid this coming sat. haa. finally!!! the night, the music. R&B. i'm craving for it for a long time. brghh. but its not what i'm really looking forward. cause its underage party. i'm sure it's gonna be a big crowd. shall have a feel of it that night. ((: gee. i miss the blusting of R&B!!!
i'm dont mean to hide anything from you for the past few months. i'm not saying anything out is that i'm just afraid of one thing. i dont mind how others look at me. the urge of sharing with you always comes by. but i've always swallow it. i dont know how should i start of with. i appreciated every thing you've shared with me. i felt sorry when i heard that rumous. i hope you wont feel upset about me. i'm greatful for your concern and the support you have given me. i've always trusted you like the way you were to me.(:
i'm putting away the fear once again. it might not be the answer that i'm looking for. but at least i've given a try. yupp.

vonmissesyou.
1048pm