i know it well myself how would this path be like when i've chosen it right from the start. how i wish i dont understand anything. how i wish i'm just glancing through without having any thoughts into it. everytime i got into that page. this feeling just comes by. i couldn't take control of my curiosity. i'm blaming myself whenever i left that sight. i'm already sinking and now i'm just putting more weights onto myself. what am i doing? i really dunno. i'm stuck. who's there to pull me up? i've been struggling for a long time. i didnt want to give up. cause theres always this little things that gave me the strength to carry on. no one can see it or feel it. all this might just mean nothing to anyone. but just me,myself. for now. i'm really doubting my own ability. i'm losing my sense of direction. i'm lost. i'm tired. really really tired. i'm thinking what should i do next. people do advice me. but do i get it? no! so whats the point of people giving me advice? i've always say i'll cheer up. ya. i do try. but afterall. everything just resume back.
i dont know if that refers to me. i wish its not what i think. i feel that everything just dont turn out fine for me. things just drift me apart as the time past. left alone in the darkness with no one around. slience is all i could hear. songs with tears is my company in the night.


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