CHOOSE IT ;

Y Saturday, December 26, 2009 Y

wanted to announce my blog dead.
readers might have already walked out from here.
been really busy to even come in here.

i wanted to believe, i wanted to believe what you've told me.
i've been telling myself its not what i think, what others said.
because that time i've made you upset.
that's why i wanted to deny the "fact" and to believe every thing comes with a reason.
but why did i managed to find out the puzzles which are meant to join together and the possibilities?
i don't mind where i stand, i dont mind the actual fact.
but i'm just upset because you didnt come clear to me or rather its not a need actually.
but i feel really bad, upset of myself.
cause i'm helpess when i know i have to face the fact.
i know i have to be contented with what i have NOW!
yes indeed i am.
was really overwhelmed when i heard that.
but constantly i would still question myself, would everything still be like the past or things would change to better or worst?

a date to remember and a step deeper.
everything is all because i love you and i feel so helpless..

in a moment like this.
1154am

Labels: afraid of losing you..

Saturday, December 26, 2009 ----------------------------

Y Friday, October 09, 2009 Y

okay, i said will be back soon(:

bear with this long post i'm having..
thought of uploading all those overload photos,
but cause its too overload that i'm still having a hard time uploading it on FB.
so i'll give it a miss here.

4D3N Cameron trip, i thought it was better than expected.
fun and laughter is the best medicine to forget anything for the time being.
sudden urge of wanting school to reopen. FIRST TIME!
perhaps, because of the clique and company.
i wish coming class chalet will be a pretty good one as well(:

been telling myself this,
running is the only exercise to slim down.
but i'm starting to hesitate again.
because i don't want my carves to be big!
why must everything have GOODs and BADs at the same time?

sitting alone at the pool side for that few minutes,
looking at the determination and enthusiasm from them.
that familiar place i used to be, but not anymore..
flashing back those memories, those times..
the regrets i'm always having.
IF ONLY i'm determine enough,
IF ONLY i don't mind so much!
only till then i realised i seriously love & miss everything about it.

i've finished up alot of korean drama,
starting a new drama again.
i want to learn korean, but IS i got french ):

sometimes my heart skip a little bit faster, but sometimes it doesn't..
why?

in a moment like this.
0849pm

Friday, October 09, 2009 ----------------------------

Y Saturday, September 26, 2009 Y

i hate packing bag for holiday...
it took me hours and yet i'm not done!

working at sheraton this weekend.
2 continuous long working day.
&& needa report to school early in the morning on monday!
who is that nice to drive me to school. anyone? HAHA.

TIRED!!
i wanna get a rest now.
only 4 hours of sleep.
goodnight world.
sweet dream tonight again, please (:

photos overload already~
but FB is updated!
will be back SOON!
((:

missmissMISS you esp....
0336am

Saturday, September 26, 2009 ----------------------------

Y Friday, September 25, 2009 Y

disappointed!!
in fact, soo much...

it seems like i'm being the nosey one.
maybe i shouldn't be bothering so much at all.
but why am i still bothering?
why do i get affected when i learn to know the truth?
why is the trust always broken?
i thought that all these while it had changed.
but i guess i was wrong.

maybe i'm assuming everything here.
& i really wish it was just my assumption.
please tell me i'm wrong about it. '

this time, i'm really leaving my hands off it~

Friday, September 25, 2009 ----------------------------

Y Thursday, September 24, 2009 Y

recalling is the best thing on earth(:

why am i not blogging for a month.
when's the last post before this.
& when is it now..

sometimes we let affection go unspoken,
sometimes we let our love go unexpressed,
sometimes we can't find words to tell our feelings,
Especially towards those we love the most...

in a monent like this.
everything went blank..

1228am

Thursday, September 24, 2009 ----------------------------

Y Monday, August 24, 2009 Y

❤
the 24th.
i miss you.
It's all i have to say..

Monday, August 24, 2009 ----------------------------

Y Wednesday, August 19, 2009 Y

HUSH HUSH, my all time favourite song for now.

each and every word meant so much.
i don't deny it affect me, in fact soo much.
though everything is as expected.
but i know of all the difficulties and reasons.
i've learn to accept it, slowly..

i know i couldn't seem to focus on anything the whole day.
i know my driving practice today was way bad.
i know regardless of the countless scolding and remainder i still made the same old mistake.
i know i hadn't been studying the whole day.
i know my mood turn upside down.
but i dont know what exactly i should do now.

my eyelid seems so heavy...
for everything it would affect me that much,
is when the moment you've became so so important to me.

in a moment like this.
i miss you.
0450pm

Wednesday, August 19, 2009 ----------------------------