this cny has not been any better either.
its just another weekend for me.
late visiting to grandma house this year.
caught love matter on the first late night with the loves.
pardon me, i got check cause its a nc16 show. & i went.....
occupied myself with dvd on the whole day 2.

school resume on the 3rd day.
presentation was pretty alright.
finally IS lesson is over.
skipped bball lesson and back home early.

exams around the corner, got to start mugging again.
so much to revise and study on.
not to get distracted this time round.

even if i say,
i want to hold on even if it takes me through the worst nightmare, it never works anymore..

till then,
1215am

everything turn upside down

i swear that feeling is so....
i swear its so uncomfortable.
but at least for that moment, i stop thinking about it.

forsaken.
same day but meant different.

in a moment like this.
1104pm

2009 will never be any better..

these days aren't easy, like they have been once before.
i'm longing for words to describe me.
its hard to force that smile when things ain't the same.
there are days and again i've been pretending that i'm okay.
its just a matter of time, i know.
but time takes time.
i should have know, all this would happen one day.
through everything that's been said and done.
now that all the words don't mean anything.
i'm torn to do what i have to.
i'm counting all the things i couldn't do.
i once followed the voice i heard again,
but now, i'm on my own again.
in time, the smile, everything was gone..

in a moment like this.
0246pm

putting a smile across to pretend nothing had happen.
so much things but yet i cant do anything.
i know one fear, but i do fear too.
unknowingly leaving things hanging which i doubt whats the next step.
day past, constantly reminding of those days. but not anymore now.
i try to fill my days with lots of things. but yet, it dont seems helpful.
wanting so much to hear before the night ends, but it seems impossible now.
with no heading each day, the journey back seems longer.
i'm afraid, i'm going back home...
i'm sorry. just dont say about ___ to me.
please turn back the time, will you.

in a moment like this.
0954pm