2009 will never be any better..

these days aren't easy, like they have been once before.
i'm longing for words to describe me.
its hard to force that smile when things ain't the same.
there are days and again i've been pretending that i'm okay.
its just a matter of time, i know.
but time takes time.
i should have know, all this would happen one day.
through everything that's been said and done.
now that all the words don't mean anything.
i'm torn to do what i have to.
i'm counting all the things i couldn't do.
i once followed the voice i heard again,
but now, i'm on my own again.
in time, the smile, everything was gone..

in a moment like this.
0246pm