i'm lost this time. i need your guidance..
i'm tried, really am.
i dread training nowadays. i dont know why.
i'm considering. but i guess its real this time.
but now, its not the time yet.
though i know its hard, really hard..
but sometimes you know, certain things have to sacrifices.
so many concerns.
i seriously doubt i can bear any consequences.
i'm trying not to stay anymore closer.
cause if the time comes, i'm afraid i wouldnt bear to.
i know what would the outcome be, if i utter out one day.
but if really that happen, i bet i have really think through.
i know i might be selfish, but.. i'm sorry..


landtraining later in the evening. how i wish it was not as tough as last week.
sigh..

in a moment like this.
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