ya. i once said. one should not ask for more. should appreciate everything we have even if its just a minute or second. i've asked myself this. have i really appreciated? or have i been asking for more? i cant answer this myself. words are always contradicting. been think alot during that time. time might pass. but i wont grumble at all. yupp. cause is not always, you see. ya. one might not be happy for it. but it's really alright for me cause i dont mind(: sigh. this is not what i have expected. just abit disappointed with it. been thinking ways to help it. might not be perfect. just my thought anyway. ya. people wont express out their feelings at times. but i really wish what she said is true. at least i know its being appreciated. been thinking and chatting alot. i just dont know why too. i am seriously hook to it. i guess i cant bring myself back to who i am. been trying hard to let go sometimes, but there's just something stopping me. is really hard. maybe i'm just giving myself excuses not to. i've read it. ya. seriously i can feel what the feeling is like. and i knew something that i dont wish to know. but i just cant stop myself for not viewing anything. but after that. what i will always got is just disappointment. why am i creating so much trouble and making myself feel so worst. althought i dont know but definetely i'm just being envy of one. but i guess i'm not the only one. i understand how stress and sick things has turn out. but i really dont wish this to carry on. cause it really hurts. apology and comforting is the only thing one can do. i'm seriously in doubt with myself. silence, tears, thoughts has always come together as one when one is alone in the night. its always a different person when one is out in the day. there's always a invisible mask for one to cover. none will see it. unless you are one who also wores it. tears will slowly become dry as the day pass. i really wonder what if one day things were to happen that way when most dont wished to. how would things turn out? who are the one who will accept it? what are the others going to do? oh man. seriously if that day really come. things will gonna be a real chaotic. life is not just looking at how well the result is. but rather is the journey you have walked before. cause its the most memorable time you will definetely hold dear.


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