wanted to announce my blog dead.
readers might have already walked out from here.
been really busy to even come in here.

i wanted to believe, i wanted to believe what you've told me.
i've been telling myself its not what i think, what others said.
because that time i've made you upset.
that's why i wanted to deny the "fact" and to believe every thing comes with a reason.
but why did i managed to find out the puzzles which are meant to join together and the possibilities?
i don't mind where i stand, i dont mind the actual fact.
but i'm just upset because you didnt come clear to me or rather its not a need actually.
but i feel really bad, upset of myself.
cause i'm helpess when i know i have to face the fact.
i know i have to be contented with what i have NOW!
yes indeed i am.
was really overwhelmed when i heard that.
but constantly i would still question myself, would everything still be like the past or things would change to better or worst?

a date to remember and a step deeper.
everything is all because i love you and i feel so helpless..


in a moment like this.
1154am