I don't know what to think or how to feel.
But i know i should not be here.
As much as i want to be selfish and hold you back...

"I’ve found that it’s a good thing to go through heartache at one point or another in your lifetime. Not the petty, childhood heartache, but the kind we’ve experienced. See, when you get to the healing part of this, you will have so much love to share with someone else. You will be able to appreciate someone in ways even you cannot understand. You will be so much stronger than you were before. I know how much this sucks right now and i know it seems unfair, but when it’s all over and done with, this will all make sense. All the pain you are going through at this moment will eventually teach you some of the greatest lessons in life."

but you went away,
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