2 weeks had past. but everything seems just like yesterday. i saw you in my dreams. but is it real that i dream of you? or was it just imagination? without the presences of you at home seems so awkward.now that we cant call you when we step into the house. no more shouting from the kitchen"ahgong eat. all we can do is standing infront and say everything in our heart. hoping that you are able to hear. looking back at the photos of yours and the family photos, seeing the phone book you recorded with all our numbers in it. no more phone call from you asking if we're going back home for dinner. knowing and thinking back how you use to look after us when we are young. no longer can see you riding back from balai. now that the bicycle outside the doorstep will be stationary. no longer have you calling me to eat my favorite seafood that you use to bring back, and asking if its nice. a smile can then be seen from your face. recalling every thing that you use to do when you are around made us missed you even more. but we are glad to hear that you are not suffering anymore. may you rest peacefully in the other life. we promise to take care of grandma and keep her company. forever our beloved grandpa will stay in our hearts. every memory you have given us will be kept deeply inside.
i really missed you, ahgong.

in a moment like this.
0712pm

things hasn't been good this holidays. really bad i can say. something we don't wish to happen happened. but we have to understand certain things too. all we want is to see one longer, but we cant share the pain one is suffering during this period. all we could do is just showing our concern and nothing else.seven days had just passed. one is truly being missed by all of us. no one bear to let you go, but we cant do anything either.everyone knows what we are suppose to do now. trying to stand by one's side who really need us now. be strong grandma, everyone is there for you. so many things happen. not to mention more about that. life still have to go on.

thanks all for your greetings and concern.
special mention to someone* who had been there for the passed few days. leaving everything aside and not complaining nor grumbling even how tired one was. staying up late together with us and waking up early the next day. trying to console and bring laughter to all of us. everyone truly appreciate your presences. thanks for everything you have done. please don't fall sick, get well soon alright.

school hasnt been good either. had not done my best for the common test. due to so much distraction. lecture in school hasnt been productive to me either. was sleeping all the way when the lecture starts. seriously i'm tired. mentally and physically. nothing seems to interest me now. all i want to do was to get home early each day.

in a moment like this.
1221am

back from canoe xoxo camp. not as bad as i thought it would be. so called training camp turn out to be bonding camp? but was rather alright. cause most of it was games. night walk was just making all scream like hell. before we actually went up the lift, we scream and ran out again. you can imagine how scared the two of us were. but thankfully i'm not a guy, if not i had to walk alone. haha. the hostel we stayed during the second night was awesome. i swear i dont mind staying there longer. haha. sometimes its great staying in a house with only your friends around. the girls now seems more bonded after the camp. somehow now i'm looking forward for the cfoc(:

met up with the 5/3 dudes. had our class gathering over at east coast. finally all met up again. wonder when's the next gathering. all was busy with their school and work. had forfeit games played to keep us awake in the night was crazy. both P and me was laughing all the way. i swear i wont want to ton outside anymore. i had a hard time surviving through the night, when there isnt any proper seat for me to rest. some cant help but to tolerate my complain. haha. bused home. thats when you find home is like heaven.
thanks baide for your shoulder(:


in a moment like this.
0524pm

bbq for that night. the food was alright. entertainment's by some seniors was great. at least we wouldn't get that bored. i love the birthday card drawn by Stephanie. everyone wanted that for their birthday too. i swear you will keep that for life if you got one too. haha. more group photos are with the rest. that "name" doesn't seems to leave me, until now. i wonder why. i just don't like.

the birthday girl

common test for this week is finally over. left with the last paper which is right after the term break. i wonder if i have enough time to study. my schedule for the 2 weeks is like fully packed! i want the full June break ): not to mention any more about the past 2 papers i did. i swear i gonna flunk it real badly.

nothing good had happen these days. i wish, no! its we wish that everything never happen that day. its heart aching to see one now. everyone now is worried. by not making things worst. everyone is trying their best to do their little part in everything. now i just wish miracle to happen once again, seriously.

went over to amk hub with P. roam around and back to YT to collect my Olevel cert. ya. its like after so many months. which some already collected it long ago. headed to P's house after that. same old routine we use to do. cant help to laugh non-stop when some photos are capture. just so unglam.

will be back after my training camp. somehow i dread it now. thinking of more physical training the whole day. just make me feel tired. maybe it would be fun too? ya. thats just what i think.

i'm mentally tired!

in a moment like this.
1239am

i've been tagged(:

1. how long will you wait for someone you love?
er. god knows?

2. what do you want to do now?
enjoy my life.

3. what will you do when your dearest lost trust in you?
lose hope? everything would become meaningless?

4. Do you hate your friends sometimes?
yes. just sometimes.

5. Where do you wish to die?
i don't wish to die. haha.

6.Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
yes. but not all the time.

7. What impossible things you wish to do?
everything i wish for to be mine.*i'm greedy at times*haha.

8. your darkest secret
i doubt i have one now?

9.have you broken someone's heart that he/she tried to commit suicide?"
of cause not. and i hope not.

10.what if your crush asked you out?
haha. what do you think?

11.describe your other half?
who's my other half?

12.what feelings do you hate the most?
get rejected, being sad

13.do you cherish every friendship of yours?
obviously YES.

14.what are you looking forward in the coming weeks?
finish my common test.

15.the most important thing in your life.
my life, my family, everything that relates to me.

16.have you ever betrayed someone who's dearest to you?
have i?

17.do you find life meaningless?
sometimes.

18.who do you love the most?
my mother.

19.the craziest thing(s) you ever did.
i lose control of myself in the loo with AND, when we're drunk.

20.what's your greatest wish?
not to have anymore regrets.

21.the sweetest thing you ever did for someone?
should ask the someone then. is that counted the sweetest thing?


instruction:remove one question from above and replace it with your own. Tag 8 people, list them down at the end of the post. Notify them in their chatbox that they have been tagged.

-Andrea
-Eunice
-Litong
-Pamela
-Huimin
-Yahui
-Xianghui
-Kuanyi

Taking off question 2, replace with:what is the thing you regret most?