31st may, PAMELA WEE YUN XUE turn 18! happy birthday girl(: wanted to have a small celebration with this little girl of ours. and thats when finally the three of us met up again. headed to bistro delifrance for dinner. chats and gossip, snaps of photo, we girls used to do when we come together. something that draw us nearer after each meet up. went to watch Narnia after that. ya. definitely never disappoint me. same rating i would give as compared to the first part. hopefully more parts would be coming out. i'm looking forward to it. BEST show in the year. recommended to watch. double thumbs up! i love ahya's belly piercing! and ya. observe something. she twist on every photo. haa.






finally like FINALLY, i saw min! yes. ever since the school started like weeks, we hadn't been meeting up nor never did we bump into each other in school. how sad it is. and i miss her like hell. things are just getting so pack that i cant even meet up with one at times. thats why i'm always grumbling time is not enough.

common test started. first EM1 paper today, i doubt i will do well. gonna lock myself infront of the books these days till i finish my paper. much more memory work to be done and much more brain cells gonna be dead. i'm gonna struggle to understand again. i'm gonna work doubly hard to pass all modules. bless me please!

i felt so bless, each time i got encourage and useful advise by her. you never know how much she understand and sometimes you just feel like pouring everything to her. she's always there as she promised. never fail. somehow a short catch up is enough to pull us back again. although we seldom or never met up since the day. but i still believe we could count on each other. sometimes i really wish things could be better for both of us especially her. i just hate those who take her for granted.missing sweetie seems to be a habit now.

since the day, you know i couldn't lie or hide. might seems that i don't bother but you know its impossible. just making sure i wont feel as horrible. everything seems to change according to time, but never did the only thing change. thats only true when you believe.

in a moment like this.
0120am

Life has been busy with schoolwork these days. Trying to clear up each project and test each day. Common test is coming up next week. You can wonder how stress one can be when a class is so competitive. Wonder if most of them got to understand things at their tip of finger, and one was struggling like hell. After each test, I fear so much that I would not do well. Thinking of competing with anyone? Please, definitely I don’t have to think about it. And I swear I feel damn guilty of not doing my part in one of the report. Trying my best to clear the work that has to be completed on time and study for test seems so difficult to accomplish at times. Sometimes I really abhor myself. How I wish I can be smarter.

I miss my secondary school life. At least I don’t stress over studies as much as now. What most I miss my secondary cliques. I can’t seem to share anything with anyone here. I hadn’t have much time to meet up with anyone too. Seems like everyone is drifting apart. I believe such saying that when you meet someone new you will tends to lose someone. This is what i hate about life.

i dont seem to know what i'm thinking anymore. i'm missing one like crazy.

in a moment like this.
1123pm

10may
had DND so had to skip training. cause i dont wanna spent the 70bucks on my makeup and hair which i dont intend to. Thanks AND for helping me with my hair and ARYS for the make up(: met up with xiuying before we headed to meridian. roam around before everything started. dinner, couple games and performances carried out. after all was alright. but still, i did not enjoy as much.





11may
after work, went to celebrate mother's day.went over to newton circle to have dinner. expected the food there to be nice. but much disappointed.anyway she's going to bring us to get something nice this week(:

12may
met up with the same clique of people to school. had Elearing week. which i feel its kinda lame. as we dont have to attend school. but we need to go online to attend some of the lesson. which i feel its not helping in anyway but rather wasting time. and i seriously dont know what we are suppose to do. so we came school to get some of the things done.
common test are coming soon. i seriously dont think i will do well. modules are getting tougher, projects are getting more and more. seems like i dont have enough time each day. can someone just stop the time someday? or extend the time? duh. damn random. but i seriously need more time.

we got bored. so decided to cam whore.





super unglam pic of mine!

counting down to june holiday.trip to bangkok with the loves one((:
Finally and finally its confirm. haha.

in a moment like this.
1015pm

canoe pool training today was great. unlike Wednesday land training. you will definitely get exhausted after that. and yes. i finally overcome the fear of capsizing. but now. another fear which is playing the game. cause all of them are so aggressive. oh man. i bet i cant be like them. haha. and its definitely fun as compared to the training of passing ball which is much much more boring. managed to do the paddle row. and guess going to learn the hand row the next week. push up which i dread most! whats more we did the standard today. requested by the coach. but obviously i didn't complete all 50. haha.
i still dunno if i'm going to commit into this.
thanks JL for company. she stayed in my school alone just to wait for me. haha. now you know why i heart them that much! lol. over to see baby lukas and then dinner. they had mahjong session again. but not me! haha.

studying.training.working.
thats my life now):

in a moment like this.
1213am