i wanna start school. now i miss the school days. come home early for dinner and tv session with my dears. meet up with my beloved girls for some catch up. now i seriously believe this sentence. you'll gain something and lose something at a same time. now that i've got a job. but it seems like i'm losing the close ones. i've not yet met my dears for outing or even a short chat of face to face, i've not met min since a month or even two? i've not seen ahya for so long. i've not went out with my juniors for our holiday outing. i've not yet go k with super and C. even everyday i've been seeing P. but we hadnt went out together since we started work. crazy bunch of seven hadnt come together for so long. and ties never met up together again. sigh. seems like work drifted me and my girls. i dont enjoy these life. sometimes theres so much i feel like telling, but now it seem so hard. everybody is busy with their own life and stuff. i seriously miss all of you.
especially the one.
sorry sweetie. wasnt there to see you guys perform on the cca bazza. cause i've got work. ): i wanna go back. i miss dance, i miss the dancers.

i didnt know why i've not change the status. i guess its the numbness. even if i did. i guess it'll still be the same. just let me pretend, i guess it'll be better. i'm off. so i wouldnt see or think much. yupp.

vonmissesyou.
1216am

last day of 2007 was a wonderful outing with my lovely sweetie. we finally met up after so much of delaying due to work and time clashes. down to vivo. we went round the mall with our talks.the ice cream we had and the pics we took will be remembered. there's so much we can share.the book i'm gonna write and pass it back. thats another way of our heart-to-heart communication.i miss you.
i will try as you told. blogging and listening to hyper songs. thanks for those advice.

work was fine with company by her. working hours seems shorter cause we woke up slightly later and knock off slightly earlier. enjoy when irene is around. no fear of grumbling at those sickening customer. cause she did the same way too. LOL. i swear those little kids was cute. crawling and running around the shop like they always do. those laughter and cries from them was warmly. i enjoy the life with small kids around.

3days of chalet was great with the company of pals which hadn't met up for quite some times. not all attend as thought. swimming, mahjong-ing, munching, watching dvd, singing, cycling, playing water guns, exploring, drinking, starting fire for few hours due to lousy charcoals, bbq. all these we did enjoy. although all started to knock off at mid 3 to 4 plus for both nights. all these wont happen without the help of our beloved MR LIM, ya. much much appreciated. thanks. and i love kayen!! superbly cute and shy boy. i love!(:

i dont know what exactly to do. i feel another way and act the other way. i seriously hate what i'm doing just. i thought i'm half way through. but now i know actually i'm only turning round. i thought i can. but still i couldnt. full of broken thoughts that i cant repair. i seriously dont want that scenario to happen. its just hurting each time. you will never know. cause i'm just nothing.if there's choice of life and lose. i'll rather choose life. its as though losing life without you. whats more i need to do, was i enough?
everything seems like a mistake from the start.
will it be the last drop. i wish.

vonmissesyou.
1142pm