my days are busy. always so since the year started.
but this makes me realize that every single day was so important and yet precious.

random post.
had family dinner to celebrate grandma's birthday.
trainings as usual.
been over to lower seleta to slack these days.
the company, the place, the scenery was great.
gossiping over the phone with ass.
random cliques i've hang out with these days.
catch painted skin and mama-mia.
been home late almost every day.
missed grandma's cook* cause i hadnt been home for dinner for so long.
work at RLC resumes.
swimming session with dearJL the next morning(:
GCCcamp in a day time.
and the list goes on....

people starts saying.
people starts asking.
i just feel sorry.
i dont know why, no particular reason.
just feel so.
awkward situation i'll try to overcome.
turning back everything to how it was like before,i'll try.
i apologize for any misunderstanding i've made before, if any.
i'm sorry):

that night i was left alone.
the tears went dry.
i'm speechless.
awaiting for the phone call/message especially on that day.
holding back each time cause i think i shouldnt keep asking.
i put so high hopes on it each time.
but i know previously there's reason to it.
i wonder why should i brood over it so much.
cause you never promised anything in the first place.
maybe somethings really crops up.
maybe i shouldnt put so high hopes.
maybe i shouldnt be upset or angry.
maybe i shouldnt be so selfish.
maybe i should be more considerate.
maybe i should just take things lightly.
maybe i shouldnt have so many maybes.
i dont mean anything. please dont mistaken it(:
afterall, that single beep from you again.
i swear its enough to remove everything. that whatever rubbish thinking i had before.
i know you've been doing your part.
a little effort you made.i'm contented! really am(:
imisssyou.

one say i should tell.
one encouraged me.
one thinks that it will succeed.
but i told one.
it wouldnt be.
cause i dont have the courage to face the outcome.
and i think its still not the time yet.
or maybe, its never the time yet.

in a moment like this.
0155am