life these days was really hectic. daily life was packed with school stuffs. rushing for projects, revising for tests, tutorial work and training. i wonder if i can really cope. i guess the first thing i would give up is work. ya. i already told and said to seek for her understanding. felt so sorry, but i've no choice. now that even some of the sunday we had to turn up for the pool slot. sigh. i seriously need more than 24hours per day! and i've been complaining tired each day. dozing off in lecture seems to be my daily routine. i want to stay awake and listen to lecture. but i just cant. seriously i dont know whats wrong with me. i did badly for the common test. i fear i would do badly in my exams, i really do. sigh.

now i realize canoe polo is not as easy as you thought. i wanna grab hold of row, i wanna paddle straight, i wanna understand every rules of the game, i wanna start playing the games, i wanna stay in the team. but i dont want to become muscular and i dont want it to affect my studies.
i lose confident, i panic, i struggle. you know how much i fear when i got out of breath? when can i do row without anyone supervising? still seeking for an answer.

had a cousin gathering with grandma at yishun's swensen that day. and it was like a week before. but still, gonna update about it. i swear it was awesome! the first cousin gathering we had. thanks 2nd aunt for the treat(: everyone had their own meal and end of with 2 earthquake. thats when you see all of us snatch to grab the nicest flavor. We enjoyed the dinner that night.
but still,grandpa wasn't there with us. not anymore.













in a moment like this.
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