days and days of mugging was not easy, i swear. getting yourself to focus and not be distracted. mentally telling myself its gonna be over real soon. ya. as people say-time flies. Os is finally over. so much looking forward to this day. ya. and i know many things gonna change.
was looking for job desperately. seriously in need of cash and to pass time. but i dont enjoy the moment when you first step into a new environment when you know none and anything. well. i know its part of life. hopefully pam and i could get into the same job. at least there's one i know. haa.

night safari was indeed fun with them around excluding those scares from them. aww. i guess i've been screaming in a countless time. haa. who will ever sream in a night safari while walking? man. its rather fun watching those animals at night but i still preferred zoo. at least i wouldnt be screaming around and there's more animals. ahmeng including(: well. at least i've went to a night safari once. haa. sound pathetic.
''wanna work in night safari?''
''whats the pay?''
''10bucks per hour''
''of cause!''
''(laughing)''
too desperate. no choice. haa.

i miss those moments when there's just the two. words can be told and shared. not hiding anything from one. but now. there's only one who is telling but the other? maybe one did. but i'm sure its only when being asked. sometimes i thought if there's no trust anymore or there's some replacing one to confide in. perhaps i'm too used to what its used to be. i know i should get things clear that things are different now. i know i might sound selfish here. but its really hard to find someone when you can really confide in each time. i guess theres nothing one dont know about. cause almost everthing is being told but now its left hanging. one might know who i'm refering to. but please dont get things wrong. i'm not trying to change anything or blame anyone.

Another night and i'm missing you.
It's killing me.
I'm almost out of air and i know you are my reason for breathing.
Hoping deep inside your heart's gonna find a reason.
To keep me breathing.
I'm lost in this pain, please tell me what should i do.
You know, i wish you were here.

vonmissesyou.
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