mood totally change after the wrapping training. didn't really concentrate on what i'm doing. so many thoughts. so much concern. just couldn't bring myself forward to say those word. so many things holding me back. i don't bear seriously. but just something that made it to a no choice. a day more before i can really put an end to it. was really freak out with this. sigh..

29th. the last paper for dearAND. meeting my both dear for shopping. how long since we last went out. just miss those days. ya. hopefully we could get our prom dress tomorrow. just need comments from my dears.

i'm standing here, and you're miles away
in your world i have no meaning
though i'm trying hard to understand
it's the heart that's breaking
down this long distance line

vonmissesyou.
1158pm

six day a week work was tiring. everyday i'm complaining tired. time past was slow. maybe i didnt have much things to do. not looking forward to the 7th. wrapping counter open. thats when i'm gonna have more things to do. maybe more stress. big cross for me to accomplish my task well and fast with more pair of eyes looking at me. shakehead. practising wrapping using japanese style was just worse worse and worse. hopefully i can just stick with the international wrapping. haa.
ya. was complaining to dearJL and pam. i just cant stand those people making a big fuss over small things. gosh. just a weird one i've met today.

you appear like a stranger.
everything has been faded. faded away so clearly that now its left nothing.
all messed up. not deserving anything nor anyone.
tears appear just as often. no one knows. just the few teddy feels.
just a simple greeting one is looking for. but it always seem so hard to acquire.
until one dont mind another come looking with reason.
cause its still better than nothing.

one-seven.
its just another day.

vonmissesyou.
1114pm

two days of work was fine so far. didnt really encounter much difficulties. much appreciate from the helps of my colleagues. both was in different department. but still we'll meet up for lunch and tea break(: sadly, both offday was different. no outing that means. ya. like she said. work and earning money was our daily routine for now. was planning to quit the first day but still gonna continue for the first month. just somethings difficult to handle.
nobody knows. just us.

why did i act like you mattered
it was silly of me to believe
that if i just opened my heart
things would come naturally

vonmissesyou.
0943pm

days of staying at home was much preferred with company by my dears. days of slacking was just a day more. starting work on friday. hopefully the work was not that stressful. ya. how much i know both of us was gonna be in a different department. independent required. big cross to it. but no choice. hopefully we'll be in the same level.

met up with min this evening. FINALLY. ya. after so many turn down. much guilty. catch up with her was great. usual place we used to sit and chat with ice-cream. chats of our future and the process of giving birth sound terrifying. back track to our old days when theres so much we can do but yet didn't accomplish. people just regret after they lose something. more meet up to go. (:

I stand out in the rain here for hours
Looking like I feel inside
I can't give anymore than my heart
You shattered it a million times
At least you can see that
I'm crying out in the rain

vonmissesyou.
0939pm

now i know how hard it is to find a suitable job. didnt managed to go for all the interview. was tired by then when we went for the 2nd one. some was rather far and deep inside that we couldn't find our way. yet such disappointment with the pay and environment. hopefully we can get the one at dear's place. if not shall see how monday's interview goes.

so many places i wanna go.
so many i wanna go out with.
if only i get a job and pay.

met up with ties.
how long since we've met up together.
chats and laughter, i wished to hold onto forever.
looking forward to the next meet up.
haa. we should plan ahead.
the game plan was a nice show. worth watching(:

The only reason for the tearsdrop.

The only thing that i would be wishing upon a wishing star.

Will you only be a memory?

vonmissesyou.
1101pm

days and days of mugging was not easy, i swear. getting yourself to focus and not be distracted. mentally telling myself its gonna be over real soon. ya. as people say-time flies. Os is finally over. so much looking forward to this day. ya. and i know many things gonna change.
was looking for job desperately. seriously in need of cash and to pass time. but i dont enjoy the moment when you first step into a new environment when you know none and anything. well. i know its part of life. hopefully pam and i could get into the same job. at least there's one i know. haa.

night safari was indeed fun with them around excluding those scares from them. aww. i guess i've been screaming in a countless time. haa. who will ever sream in a night safari while walking? man. its rather fun watching those animals at night but i still preferred zoo. at least i wouldnt be screaming around and there's more animals. ahmeng including(: well. at least i've went to a night safari once. haa. sound pathetic.
''wanna work in night safari?''
''whats the pay?''
''10bucks per hour''
''of cause!''
''(laughing)''
too desperate. no choice. haa.

i miss those moments when there's just the two. words can be told and shared. not hiding anything from one. but now. there's only one who is telling but the other? maybe one did. but i'm sure its only when being asked. sometimes i thought if there's no trust anymore or there's some replacing one to confide in. perhaps i'm too used to what its used to be. i know i should get things clear that things are different now. i know i might sound selfish here. but its really hard to find someone when you can really confide in each time. i guess theres nothing one dont know about. cause almost everthing is being told but now its left hanging. one might know who i'm refering to. but please dont get things wrong. i'm not trying to change anything or blame anyone.

Another night and i'm missing you.
It's killing me.
I'm almost out of air and i know you are my reason for breathing.
Hoping deep inside your heart's gonna find a reason.
To keep me breathing.
I'm lost in this pain, please tell me what should i do.
You know, i wish you were here.

vonmissesyou.
0249pm