as expected. everything doesnt went smoothly. i didnt blame anyone nor i'm pointing or pushing the blames to anyone. i wanna get eveyone clear. not everyone will understand. some might even find that i'm ridiculous. i dont know exactly what i can do or help. maybe i'm just as useless. i'm appointed to do it. of cause i want things to get going smoothly. but why cant everyone just cooperate like the others? ya. maybe sometimes i'm asking too much or what. or maybe from the start its a wrong decision. i'm just disappointed. i dont wish things to change just because of this. i know i'm not as good as the others. but i've tried. and i did put my heart in peparing all this. maybe i shouldnt be the one giving and doing. i felt sorry too. i just couldnt control my emotion. they just dont understand how i feel and what i'm thinking. never mind. no point saying and grumbling so much. hopefully things will turn out fine. ya. not forgetting that i've appreciated to the others as well.

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