i really dont know what one is thinking. i cant control what one thinks and what one wants to do. is this really what one wants? so just somehow got influence? i really dunno why one will choose to do this. will this really help? or maybe one think that its not a need. so dont bother? if so, then show something beter. if this carries on. i really dont know if i would continue to sit and watch. i really don wish one would regret at the end. it would not gain anything but rather lose it when i think one can do it. maybe somethings really happen and affect. but why let emotions take over at this period. please. time is really running out.
maybe you might think that i was too over-reacting? or just too sensitive. but i just want to say i still care. if not i wont feel this way. just, things are not used to be what it is.

viewed it.it reminds me of that day. i've been waiting and hoping that you would asked. but it never happen.i really dont know what you said in the past really mean.maybe it meant.just that i dont feel it? why would things turn out things way? why can't things stays the same like what it was in the past? it really hurts when i found that words and action were not the same. was i asking too much each time? why both can but just not me? i didnt mind if time spent were just an hour or even few minutes. i've never and i dont wish to think that things would actually turn out this way. maybe i was really too sensitive with the things that actually never happen. but never mind. from now. i would not be the one asking. but rather the one accomplish. trust me.

Disappointed`

i dont wish to bother. i dont wish to say anything either. i'll just be the normal self.

had a chat with the both of them on the way back.
was shock to hear about this things. ya. maybe the one really change. or just that we didnt realise from the beginning? like what we say.
i just hope that both of you dont think too much about it. just be what you guys use to be. nothing's wrong actually. i know those words really hurts. but dont take it to heart. cause i'm very sure that this wouldnt happen. right? must have faith in yourselves.
i want to see the two cheerful girls. cheer up alright.(:
you can always come to me if somethings bothering you. like what you often do in the past.
to another. if you dont mind. feel free too.

many things just happen these days.
people just moodswing easily.
people just get emo easily.
why? sigh.

vonmissesyou.
0719pm