i hate my life, i hate my everything. the truth has come down, the truth has been told. i really dont wish that what i heard and saw is the truth, but what can i really do? to pretend i knew nothing? to carry on deceiving myself? or to blame myself? everyday i tell myself to move on with my life, and i try to pretend that i'm happy, but it's just not true. my understanding of you stared to fade. or i should say. i had never understand you before. things around me got worst this days. wondering if i could help. but there just seems nothing i really can do. people often regreat things they have done and not done. so who can really tell if one does things would not be regreated? theres one thing i guess i would never get the answer i want. its been months. yupp. this i should really blame myself for that. sigh. listening to those songs makes me remind of the time we use to had together. i miss the last time us. and i miss you especially. where am i suppose to find back all of you? its all gone. all i can do to find you is only in my thoughts. i guess. i had always been hoping for the day to be back one day. but i guess i had be dreaming all the while. i know i got to wake up now! but i just cant bring myself awake! i've been struggling. but i guess i didnt try hard enough. cos i dont wish too. its been months also. yupp. i wont denied that i had slowly gotten use to it. but the flash of the times we had would always be there. dont tell me none of you feel that? i know its all memories now and its all facts. what i said now can never turn back the time. what we can do is to be happy with the path that we choose. i will, cause thats the path i chose myself. so i hope you will also. ya. i should really wake up and get on with my freaking life!

vonmissesyou.
1129am.

sat went shopping with my superman. haa. actually intended to go watch superstar thing then after that do hw. but ended up shopping.lols. junie came to meet us after that.chickenny stay at home that day. haa. hmm. something bad happen on her. hais. wondering whose that Freaking person who did that stupid stuff. this matter had cause my junie to be so moody and scare. arghh. if we found out whose that person is. that person shall get it man.
*junie.dont think too much le. anything we will always be there for you ((:*

creation by superman (:

she's moody? ):

but she seems happy ((:

alone? haa.

monday blues? haa. nahs. not everyone have monday blues. haa. had my mt prelim this morning. erm. its quite managable i think. hee. took back my maths prelim result. haa. quit satisfied ba. :D but other subject dunno if can make it. but i know my hist fail le. ):
went jogging with my superman today again. man. today was really tiring. haa. 2.4, we jog for how long? haa. after that went to the exercise area. haa. my superman keep worring that she will have muscles. lols. cannot make it. hmm. after that we went to the usual place. haa. had out ice tea and prata. lols. while waiting for lings to come. that superman of mine wanna take pic again! haa. think she cannot stand me. cos i kept singing that song to her. lols. *hey. that lyrics is meant for you. lols.* must appreciate ma. lols.

supers enjoying! (:

superman ask me to pose this:
shy? nahs. haa.

drinking her fav. enjoying right? (:



vonmissesyou.
0949pm

pelim exams finally over le. monday getting back the result. man. dunno if thats gonna be a good sign or bad one. hmm. anyway. still got to mug real hard this two weeks. after that we can really have a break le. wahaha. ytd after the paper. headed to heeren with my clicks. junie wanted to look for her adidas bag. man. i think she shouldnt buy. its really too expensive le. save up huh. then we had the wanton mee over there. after that we headed back. cause junie going lend her shoe to yuann. lols. thats the first time i see my superman eat so fast. and thats the first time we headed back so eraly. rubber bands for the day. lols. junie.shall bring you to see the kappa bag one day.yupp.lols. then night my superman ask me out for a drink. then we had some conversation then we went into our dreaming land. lols. retro? haa. cannot make it. lols. then after that i accompany her walk home then i took the bus back. then early morning ask me accompany her go jogging. man. its so tiring that i have to dig myself out from the bed. but still not bad. we manage to jog finish. hahas.
*girls- you all still own me 2 time of gym. tml gonna acc me go no matter what. :P*
after that we went to meet my family for breakfast. wahaha. my superman was so ps. ~sorry ar. okies ba. got to stop here le. got to meet my girls for the superstar thing. lols. take lots care.


*superman. thanks for your sweet lollipop. its the biggest i ever had.lols.but is pink. man! nvm. i still love it. TAHNKS YA. muacks. hee ((:


vonmissesyou.
12.07pm

its rather some time after i last blog. yupp. prelim gonna finish soon. left last paper. wondering if i could do well in this prelim. today's maths paper was pretty alright. ((: hahas. hope can reach my target this time. hmm. ytd's paper was science. hmm. physics paper was still okay. but chemistry wasn't that good. can say its manageable? maybe. hmm. got to buck up le. yupp. promise and made my decision to my peeps today. haa. went to popular to get the acessment and guide books. hahas. we girls was like staying at the popular for an hour plus choosing for those books. chicken and i was like opening the plastic to see what inside it looks like. hahas. typical singaporean* ( chicken?) lols. okay. we shall work hard together!!

>superman. ya. i made my decision le. so we shall go up together. hahas. remember your aiming ar? get your favourite num.5 lets work hard together. ((: (your new fav. colour)
>junie-san. must prove him wrong and show him that you can do it de. alright? we girls believe that you can walk to that path you hoping for. so go for it. yupp. jiayou ((:
>chickeny. i am very sure that you will get the 3points you wanted de. don give up and chiong all the way till 10oct ya. shall get to hear the good news from you by the end of year ((:
>yuann. do your best for you N alright? last year le. must do your very best. *dont sleep during exam hor* haa. anyway. aiming-pass your maths. k? jiayou ar. ((:
>pamie. thanks ya. you must study very hard okay? remember. A1. hahas. *believe in yourself* must say to yourself. ya. i know you can do well de. not only me. someone too. *opps. okay. A1A1A1 ya. all the best ((:
>litong. remember what i said to you just now ya. dont bother about those people. okay? stay happy and cheer up. and just now i say about the thing you alone de is also real. yupp. ((:

shall work hard till the end of 10oct.so we can enjoy after that. long waiting for that day to come.(:
will everything end in the end of year? i hope and wish it's not. REALLY.

vonmissesyou.
9.45pm

just had my chinese N paper today. finally one paper was cleared. still left quite some. hmm. tml still have ss paper. arghh. faster finish N so that i can realx a little. hmm. i'm so damn tired. ltr still got to study for the ss. hais. sians. hope i can clear tml's paper. all the best to all those whose taking the N paper. study hard ya. ((:

can anyone tell me where to get that thing i want? i had been searching for days. hmm. still no where to be found. hais. nvm. i'm sure i will be able to find it. yupp. hope to get some news about it. (:

-litong- dont be sad le okie? hmm. i know i've been saying this to you quite a number of times. but. i dont wish to see you being so sad. hmm. if you think that you really made the wrong decision. why not give yourself and him another chance. hope you will get over this matter soon. hoping to see the cheerful girl back. i waiting~ hmm.

i'm glad to hear those words just now. haa. those words brighten up my day. (: even though is not from you to me. but. yupp. thats enough. smile ((:

vonmissesyou.
0252pm

thurs 31/8/06
its teachers day concert. hahas. had a wonderful performances by all the students and the graduating classes. we girls did perform too. hahas. really enjoyed the moment that we have on the stage even is just 2 minutes or so. hmm. took alot of picture too. hahas. even my darling huimin who dont like to take pic de also took quite alot. hahas. we went to weishen house after that. hahas. huimin and me was so tired that after we sat the massage chair we were sleeping on his sofa. we were saying like. if his sofa was our bed.thats good enough le. haa. he's house was really great man. just like a palace. hahas. then we went up to the karaoke room to sing. while the rest is playing pool downstairs. hmm. after that we guys had pizza. hahas. thanks alot weishen ((:

where's ahxin?

where's yinghua?

my dudes (:

with my fav. teacher ((:



fri 1/9/06
went to meet pam,ahya and xiangs in long john. then headed to jurong for ice skating. hahas. its been so long since we went there. hahas. there's so many people over there lor. haahs. but we manage to skate too. lols. poor xiangs fall down. hahas. we saw quite alot of funny scence over there. lols. after that we girls went to take neo-print. hahas. then we went to meet mabel in causeway then we had our pizza dinner. pamie was just like a boss over there. hahas. funny. this girls created alot of nonsense and jokes over there. then was like laughing non stop. think the people over there cant stand us man. anyway. enjoyed myself ytd. hahas. shall hang out more often ((: seeya girls.

my pretty ahya.

where's pamie?



sat 2/9/06
went town area with euu in the noon then meet arys n and for dinner at the korean resturant. hahas. its been so long since we last go man. hahas. the food there was nice. yummy* then we went to the eski bar nearby at clarke quay. oh man. its really cold inside. hahas. i try the sex on the beach. dont really like the taste. think over all euu de is much nicer. haa. 3 of our leg were so damn painful that we have to find somewhere to sit. so we went to fullerton hotel. hahas. the place was nice. after some resting we girls headed home. 1st time so early go home. haa. okies. shall end this long blog here. (:

that's our drink for the day

lets look up (:

love them all ((:

vonmissesyou.
11.21pm