we celebrated xianghui's 18th birthday. had k session with the clique and over to balcony on the 24th. we played, we drink, we chat, and we cam-whore all the way. everything was great with the company. hopefully she enjoyed herself. photos up next(:

she's not the birthday girl.

but her(:

my ass was super GIRL that day! ya. and she's PRETTIE!!

had badminton session with the cousins over at cc. it has been a zillion years since i last touch badminton.but i still managed to play quite okay apart that i dont know any rules of badminton. haha. the three of us went cam-whore again...



i close my eyes. memories flashed back once again.

that night where no one wish something would happen. that fear which couldn't be brought away. tears roll down once again. so long, and so much. i've been missing you so badly...
today marks the 100day.time past so fast that you have left us for 100days already.
ever since that day. i haven been seeing you, i haven been hearing you.

there's no presences of you anywhere in the house, not anymore. all we could do was just purely recalling about the past of you.how unbearable it was when i know its time to leave that place. cause thats the place where you are now. looking at the photo of yours, you seems so close. but still, there's no sight of you. until now, it still hurts to know that you are not here with us anymore. though it has been 100days. but it just seems like you have just left for a day. everyone still had your image clearly in our mind. everyone still miss you as badly. cause you are once and always our loves one. the great father and grandpa who had shower all his love to us till the very day he could. thanks. you'll stay in our hearts forever.
i miss you...

in a moment like this.
0556pm

back from caps.i've lost my sleep for the whole expedition. i've got sunburnt again.time past within split seconds. four days of being like a kampong girl. somehow i feel abit tortured. i swear i've been complaining ALOT. and i know i shouldnt be complaining as i know i'm not the only one there. nevertheless, i still complain. haha. but other thing was really okay.
just to minus away..
the irritating mosquitoes. which made me used up almost a whole new bottle of oilment within 2days.
the brown rusty water from the tap which made me feel so reluctant to use it.
a 20-30 minutes walk to bathe, which we couldnt use for the second day due to the guard there.
seeing the f&b washing all the pots and utensils using the sand and seawater which i kept wondering will it be clean.
the darkness which we have to use torchlight after 7pm.
using the torchlight to shine when they tried to cook in the middle of night.
staying in the tent with 9 of us in there.
the rain in the middle of the night which made all of us woke up to hold and support the tent.
staying in the damp tent after the rain.
felt so home sick after the first day. cause i swear i really felt so uncomfortable when i couldnt bathe for like 1 day as feeling so sticky and itcy with so many mosquitoe bites. and all we could do was just powder bath. but apart from so many negative things, every other thing was great. a really great new experience.
the committe, the participants, all the company was great.(:

23sept
its Lifen and Larissa 's birthday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!(:
went over to island creamery to celebrate their birthday.
we had icecream and ice cream cake.
we took photos.
we sang birthday song.
& we had lots of laughter.

back to school for pool slot. training today was alright. apart that i adhore the time when my leg goes numb. thats when i couldnt concentrate to do anything. and we learn how to control and play the zone. thats the fun part i swear. though we look kinda lost. actually wanted to give training a miss again. but i didnt.
taking each step in makes me feel more reluctant to leave.
somehow i guess my decision gonna change again. just that i've to make some internal adjustment. thanks for all the encouragement and advise. i'll continue to see if this will works.
i seriously wish to stay in the team. cause the girls was really great. thanks.

gonna post those photos once i've got them.(:

now you wonder.its back to 24th again.(:
i just hope that i could go with you, to ensure everything are fine.
but i guess everything gonna be fine for you. (:

&
HAPPY BIRTHDAY xianghui((:

in a moment like this.
0303am

caps is just on friday. hopefully everything will run smoothly as what we plan. caps juliet gonna be a fun expedition this year too(:
but gonna leave home for 4days ):
i gonna miss so many people. especially....

shall made decision soon i think.
now that not just one knows. sigh.
i'm still having a dilemma.

got back my grades. i didnt do well for this sem. did really badly. so close that i nearly fail. sigh. i know i've got so much more to catch up next sem. i yet to wake up.):

just some random photos.













my cam-whore partner.
never fail to quarrel with me whenever got chance.
but still....
my ass say she gonna miss me for the next 4 days(:



don't emo k? smile(:

my birthday girl(:

in a moment like this.
0230am