MELT MY HEART

2012-01-17T12:04:00.065+08:00

Hello Imma back:D
5days of getaway to BKK pass so fast, whyyyyyyyy?! *pull face
but nonetheless, it was really good!!
this time I didnt really make good use of the camera, nothing much pretty though..
whats more since i'm madly busy shopping like the whole 5days, i hardly have time to stop down and get some snap shots..
But still its out of town!!

BKK is really a shopping paradise!
how could i ever spent these much and get so much in singapore?! like never! ):
if only i have unlimited cash, i'll really grab it like a wholesale!
and to entirely change my wardrobe for the year!
well, pretty contended with my buys.

let's see.........

Headed to get our nails done, while its cheap. :D
And yup all ready for CNY!

Okay, since i decide to try out gel nails for this CNY, and its much cheaper as compared to Singapore. i got my done for both mani and pedi for 1700batt, round $70+..
I finally got my done as well!

i quite like it though, really something different from my usual red manicure(:
however, i feel kinda retard and paranoia over it, because of the crystal might fall off anytime especially when i know i'm rough at times.
Buh, probably 3D manicure is design for ladys who doesnt need to do any hands on things and obviously im not suitable!

yupp! so that sum up my BKK trip:D

Next post, CNY!!

2012-01-12T07:51:00.002+08:00

On my way to the airport,
Flying off to BKK, like finally!!!
I wish I wish I have a crazily shopping spree for new year and a change of wardrobe!
Awesomely Im gonna meet up my dear cousinJL at platinum mall for shopping!!
How great!! :D
Oh well, not really eggcited as expected though.
I don't know why....
Still, I hope it's gonna be a good trip!
I miss Thai food luh!
Okay, just a short one.
Bye town,
BKK here I come~

Will be back in 5days(:

0755am

2012-01-03T15:04:00.010+08:00

Oh ya, about my christmas party and all.. Excuse me for not being enthu enough to transfer all the photos from the dslr into my lappy for upload. probably when i'm free and find a day to just post all the photos, but no promises.. ): because Jan is really a hectic month...

Last day of 2011 was indeed a warmth and well spent because i managed to meet up with my Sweetie, attended corina's 21st bday which got me to have a short catch up with friends. Managed to rush back with ASS to meet DoubleB and S. nothing very special, we just sat down and chat when the clock strike twelve and ticks to 01/01/2012. It was great having to spend the last minute with someone you love, though simple yet memorable(:

Headed to Party world at Safra, spent an hour plus singing. Had some argument with their services there, big sigh. But its okay, we let it go! Then head off to starbucks to chill and drink.

That summaries the end of 2011 :D

Its a new year!
2012, i wish everything to be good, REALLY!
proof me wrong because everyone's been saying 2012 isnt gonna be a good year..
but still, i wanna make sure its a good year! :D

so far, i havent really got my new year resolution yet.
how about getting a tattoo?!
HAHA sometimes i really really want it! but well well,i know it'd just be a thought...)):
okay something more realistic,
just wanna make sure everything goes smoothly as i plan, because it'd just sum up everything i wanna achieve later on :D

last year, was a pretty memorable year for me. All the ups and downs.. apart from all the downs, everything was really so much better. I see myself really growing up and knowing what i really want in life. Looking ahead and planning for myself, sometimes even fear me out when i know im behind time. To sum up, everything i've gain whether in knowledge, people i know and the good time spent, will always be remembered and brought forward to this year. As for those unhappy moments, which i always hope it didnt happen, to stay as it was.

All for all, i am appreciative that i have so many love ones which sometimes i thought i dont appreciate and feel lucky.. Because of all these awesome families, friends and my important B who i depend on more than i thought.. My life wouldnt be so much happening. I hope and wish and really thank god i have these people who play such good and important roles in my life.
Though sometime i might disappoint or got you so annoyed that you guys feel like leaving me..but nevertheless, things would be back to normal..
I'm glad to have known all of you, really am...

Alrightty,
here wishing everyone a happy new year and may all of your resolutions dreams come true!

bad day, having serious cramp.
guess red is coming my way..
been having REALLY BAD PMS recently. Sob max, HATE it!! ):

"If it didn't bring you joy, leave it behind.
Let's forget past mistakes, making amends for this year."

0701pm

2011-12-23T14:11:00.026+08:00

back track a little to 20th Dec..
Cause i finally got the photos of us at the Cookyn Inc.
Us as in my company had organised this very fun and creative christmas party at Cookyn Inc.

what exaxcly is Cookyn Inc...
"Cookyn Inc is about fostering interactions amongst people, be it in a social group or a corporate department. More than just a cooking school, we understand that cooking is just part of the fun of working together to create memories that will last for a long time...."

Our program of the day ~ Kitchen challenge!!!
"Your team will be broken up into smaller groups and assigned to different stations to prepare a 3-course gourmet meal together. Along the way, learn about the herbs and vegetables which you can grow in your own gardens and use in your kitchens. Do expect the kitchen to throw them challenges like a secret ingredient or an unknown herb from our gardens. Will your team pass the Kitchen Challenge and use their individual skill sets to bring something to the table? Celebrate your victory by sitting down together for a glorious meal that embodies the result of your hard work and team spirit!"

Sounds super fun right? yes indeed super Awesome and FUN!
Credits to: Cookyn Inc,
For more info & if you're interested,visit their website @ http://www.cookyn-inc.com

Hohoho so here we are, all ready and splited into 2 groups by the Christmas theme colour!!
GREEN (Spanish Cuisine)

RED (French Cuisine)

& Yupp, all our food are ready to be serve!
Big accomplisment! :D

Christmas exchange time~
so here is my gift that i've prepared.
Super triple like my own present!!
Well because i choose what i like! hahah but just dont commend on my ugly wrapping paper and wrapping skill..

Sooo, the rule of our eggciting gift exchange goes like this...
1st name who got picked up will get to choose 1 present among all and open up the present. The 1st person will then picked another name, now the interesting part comes.. The 2nd person can either choose a new present, or steal from the 1st person.. and same goes to the 3rd one. However the tricked of this game is that the present can only be stolen twice! Also the person who stole away your present will choose a new present for you!
What actually make this game super eggciting is the IPAD2! Our manager prepared an IPAD2 as present!! hahaha i know right, how eggciting it was! :D

So eventually no one wish to be the first one because ultimately your "ipad" will get stolen and goes to the 3rd person.. hahaha sooo who knows.. our this very lucky first guy got the IPAD!!! because the 2nd person that he picked was our manager!!
so all of us goes

seeeeeee how lucky right, so dont judge! you'll never know how lucky one can be! ((:
but when it comes to my turn....
at first the present i picked was an earphone, quite like it because its RED!!!
but knows what,

yes the one after me steal mine! & chose another BIG present for me... so HAHAHA yupp, my 2011 christmas present!!

okay, actually not too bad, and yes of cause i put some in the pantry to share with my colleagues..I can never imagine how long will i ever take to finish all up if i bring home!

&& of course of super pretty pretty logcake~

Sooo one more day to Christmas EVE!!!
HOHOHO~
will be back after christmas,
so here wishing all an advance MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

0440pm

2011-12-21T18:03:00.000+08:00

Woohooo, one week just passed~
How time flies, REALLY!

Busy and lazy week, so that speaks why i'm not in any presence...
imma kinda lazy to blog still, how cow brown now?
so yupp decided that i shall just share the photos than writing a long past week post, GREAT!:D
but knows what,

when i open my photo album to see, as usual my photos are overloaded!!!

Finally finally and Finally, i get to meet my Sweetie!!!
Awwwww, i swear its always so awesome and heartwarming to see this girl.
I miss her so much♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

And taada~
one of the bb replacement day(:

i know right, always missing this cutiepie♥ ever now and then, she's sooooo adorable!!

This little princess never fail to be so adorable and sweet as well(:

& yes last part, finally met up with my long lost jogging partner NEO!!!!
Hee, and we all head to safra for pool session((:

21st ♥ Happy 11th my Double B ♥ 21st
I love you!

Okay, Christmas is drawing near! 3 more days!!
i'm just excited YAYAYA its gonna be CHRISTMASY CHRISTMASY!

HAHAHAHA okay frankly speaking actually i dont really have the mood somehow, becauseeeeeeeeeeeeee we don't have any plans yet, and still considering where to go, and what to do..
tell me tell me, where and what can i do for this christmas?

but I really wanna have a christmas partyyyyyyyyy~
so yupp....

0702pm

2011-12-12T17:27:00.005+08:00

Sunday~

Hiak Hiak Hiak,

woke up and decided to head down to JB!

Was playing with all the photography apps in iphone, and this video apps was so retro, the lenses can even go back into 1920s.. however, didnt used the most retro lens for this video, cause i like this effect.

& ya, First video B was still quite enthu to talk and all.

but... stay tune for the later video and you'll see the difference... )):

walk around city square and finally settle down for our Lunch, The food was awesome for the first few mouth only, we thought it was because of their food having too strong flavors.. too sweet/salty...

Saw that? end up im the one talking rubbish cause she just didnt bother about me! haha so ended having such a lousy stupid video.. how sad! ):

After lunch, we caught Arthur Christmas! nice movie, whats more its a cheap deal @ Msia Cathay. S$4.50 for a movie! how Cheap is that?! :D

Double B's dad came to look for us and brought us to eat LOK LOK!! Yummy yummy delicious.

Has always been craving for that, and its like always~ :D

Went off to the custom at round 10pm, and we go............

The queue is so freaking hell long and it took us round 1 hour plus to reach Spore...

so by the time, its Midnight Fondue!!!

How Awesome is that yet how sinful!! but well well, feel so love when surrounded by all the foods, tell me how can I resist?! (:(

0622pm

2011-12-12T01:44:00.001+08:00

Teehee Imma happy girl,
lalala because my weekends was well spent with my DoubleB:D

Saturday, a new look~

DoubleB and I had an early day started,woke up around morning 11sharp and head off to the bank. like finally its done, not something a big deal, but just opened a new account and get a saving plan.. such simple things like this took me almost months to get it done. well oh well, wont deny when it comes to savings, i've zero% of self discipline, so someone like me seriously needs saving plan!! by doing so, every month im force to save $150, so after 25years.. simple calculation and you know i'll have $450 000!!! OH GAWRD!! i'm so gonna be rich after 25 years!!! muahahaha, navie! who knows what will happen 25years down the road, and hello, its 25 YEARS and not 25DAYS...

After which, headed down to SoulScissors Studio and had my hair cut. This time its really hair cut, and i mean REAL haircut. cause finally i have the courage to chop off my long hair after so many years! Well, different comments from different ones. haha its okay, at least now my hair looks much healthier without all the dry and flimsy ends.. still kinda missed my long hair, buttt its okay, its not like my hair wont grow anymore(:

okay lets see, how much difference i've change...

Here it is...

Well, my hair is black though -.-

yupp, a little awkward at first..

but nvm, cause DoubleB like it so much IDKY.

So love, first time took so many photos with me without rejecting /complaining. <3

Fruitful Shopping Day (:

Yupp thats our Saturday~

Grow old along with me, the best is yet to be.
~ Robert Browning

2011-12-09T16:11:00.006+08:00

After so many months since i step out, i finally went back last night..

not denying im super curious and excited to see the babygirl of cause!!

she's just 9days old!! so tiny and adorable, and ya her full name is Syble Lua Si En(:

she's not feeling well though, so kinda cried a few times that causes her puffy eyes.. worst thing happen is that her passed out milk was choke inside her breathing pipe and causes her breathing difficulty. poor enen, give all of us a big shock!

after last night, not denying i'm still having mixed feelings..

whether isit good and bad, missed and hates..

well, afterall i'm taking things in a positive manner, let bygones be bygones.

So yup, as promised. I'm gonna go back and visit her more often, cant wait to see through her growing-up process :D

TGIF TGIF TGIF~

its FRIDAY already!!

I'm eggcited because i've a few plans for the weekends, which gonna be picnic day(SUNNY DAY PLEASEEEEEE) , then go shopping, & get a hair cut!!! insert screams!!*

Shopping which means more clothes more accessories and all!?!? Noooooooo, not the time for wardrobe turnover yet, because counting down, January im going BKK alr!!! (but not another flood PLEASEEEEE) ^.^

Soooo, this time round my long shopping list would only consist of my necessities and some wants of cause( is a sure to cant resist)!! i know right, i've been utilizing mummys' one eg, cotton wool, make up remover, and etc.. cant help it, have not been enthusiastically in stocking them up. oppsy*

YAY not forgetting the CHRISTMASY month!! so as expected town to be filled with all the busy bees hunting for Christmas prezzie! as much as i hate it, same old routine, same old problem, cracking of head to think of the best and most appropriate gifts to get is really HARD!!! because for those who knows me, seriously an indecisive person like me, will take more than ever to decide on the right pressie!!! oh well, of cause i know i cant run away from this especially this year because i've got a few 'exchange gifts' session on..

so yupp, its time to start HUNTING FOR PRESSIE ~

Alrightty, gonna caos, have a good weekend pretty prettie~(:

" Forgiveness is the final form of love."
Reinhold Niebuhr

0637pm

2011-12-06T12:16:00.013+08:00

See the last blogged date [MARCH] and now its [DECEMBER], apparently you'll know i've not been blogging for like 9 MONTHS!?!?!

Well within this months of "disappearing", i often have the intention and urge to blog of course. However due to after since own-ing an iphone, having to switch on my laptop for social networking has been a dreadful thing for me. Not just this.. It explains why the drama series i'm watching, it always took me for like weeks after months to complete watching while some are always in the midst of watching..

In short i'm pure lazy....i know right....... -.-

Okay, drop all that..

Brief recall of what i've been busy with the past few months.. This year has been a pretty memorable and happening year i would say, Good times and Bad times of course.

Work wise, rather same.

FnB line like Marble Slab Creamery then Frolick..

And now into HQ of MSC, Franchise Business Executive, my very first office job (: Currently rather new in the job scoop, still picking up things bit by bit. Hopefully soon i'll be more independent, its always better in the working society.

Working days with my friends especially my ASS was so much of good memories, in time i always look back,missed and smile. (:

not forgetting most of the daily life with my precious gf, though simple but meant so much, one who went through alot during those up and downs, still always looking forward in everyday of seeing her(:

Yes, like until now. Many whom i missed out during those busy times.. Some had a short catch up and some were still in planning to meet up. Sometimes i really missed those youth days in secondary school, at least most of our schedule were fixed and its always easier to meetup than it is now.. well well, look ahead is more important than anything now, theres always a right time when we can come together again.

Most likely i'm back to blogging again, so ya. Shall end off with a few picked up photos which i quite like(:

Lastly, not forgetting about my 21st Birthday, my awesome cake design by my babygirl, and thanks aunty yochana for your awesome work, awesome cake ever!!

http://auntyyochana.blogspot.com/2011/11/chip-dale.html#links

“Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.”
― Maya Angelou

0243pm

2011-03-14T01:33:00.006+08:00

tired is the word,
so what if i say stay.....

sometime i wish i never have a heart,
because only then i'll have no emotions.
every time things happen, my heart sank and my tears drop.
i really wish it wasn't true and hopefully knowing its just a joke you're trying to tease me. time and again, i really felt like nothing is right, it just as though everything gonna collapse anytime.
it hit me hard and breaks my heart knowing things gonna change..

maybe i'm just too naive.
thinking everything can stay as simple,
thinking things will change to better as time pass,
thinking by just loving works,
thinking i can handle all these,
however something shows,
all these thinking is just my thoughts, me assuming..

no matter how much i try,
it just kept you in suspend.
i love you, i miss you,
but its just like you never seem to feel this way..
its painful to realize that you prefer not to hold on to a certain person anymore,
and knowing its gonna be no longer...
the fought we had did make things better somehow,
because i learn and understand things better.
but i dont know if i'm able to hold you back this time,
because it seems like you're really tired.
i don't know if i'm too sensitive,
but it seems like everytime you're pushing me away.
i know i shouldn't be keeping quiet when chances of me speaking was given,
but i chose to keep quiet at that moment.
i really don't know whats the next step,
maybe you're right, i don't even know what i can do..

you're one i wanna settle down with,
you're one i thought i'm relying much on,
you're one who became someone who meant so much,
you're one i love and care so much now,
you're one i yearn to see everyday.
and you're one i really dont wish to bid goodbye to..

songs repeat, lyrics that best describe my feeling right now..
0157am

2011-02-28T23:47:00.000+08:00

busy road with cars passing by and bus stopping ahead.
guess what,
i'm alone at this busstop surfing net while waiting for love to finish lesson. (:

just a sum up of my missing days in this page.
nothing pretty, nothing interesting, just as usual,
partly busy with my school work and revision for tests, exams.
i could only say partly, because i know when it comes to school work,
i'd always get distracted somewhere somehow,
so partly was much appropriate in use here.
sometimes i really wish i've more self discipline in my studies,
i've more passion with my current course,
so i wouldn't be struggling like mad now.
its done, 3 years pass by fast yet slow.
i've a last paper to go on friday,
look forward and buck up, thats the most i can do right now.

exam period,
always so dreadful, so dry.
but on a happier note,
knowing i get to see my lovelyB, pulls me through the though days.

&&
not forgetting about the Double.Date picnic we had on sat.
a simple one yet good enough for a break away from all the notes and books.
its awesome, really(:
perhaps i'd upload the photos here another time if i've the time.

sometimes,
waiting for someone you love can be so great too.<3
0845pm

2011-02-14T23:29:00.006+08:00

i thought its suppose to be a nice day,
i thought it'll be better, and dint thought things would turn the other way round.
i just feel like ranting it out somewhere and this is the only place i could have done so.
i have all kind of negative thoughts running through me,
can't help, i just feel so helpless, way way so sucks.
i just hate it, not anyone else but myself.
because i feel so worst, i feel so lousy, i feel so mad about everything in me!
its as though i'm breaking down,
i actually make one feel stupid?!
am i really not good enough?
am i really that lousy?
sigh,i wish you didnt turn your back at me,
i wish i could have done better.
but tell me, what can i really do to make things work out.
how can i show you that i really care, i do appreciate everything?
i'm afraid, really am.
thats why i'm feeling this shit right now..

baby can you just feel it? ):

1225am

2011-02-14T01:52:00.007+08:00

go catch Black Swan if you have not, because its really awesome!
but of cause minus out the thriller gross creepy part!
really love the storyline, the dance and the hot girls, haa.
overall its really thumbs up.

14feb,
the day people decide it to be just another day or a special day.
but still wanna wish the earthlings a Happy Valentines Day,
for those who celebrate this,
enjoy it with the one you love, or with yourselves.

thanks BB for the V.day gift - my baby Beth Kayris. ♥
had a fun time over at build a bear workshop trying to mix and match the clothing,
its really as though shopping for my little princess,
whats more with the company of BB(:
she has a heart filled with my wishes, a ID tag incase she get lost,
and know what, the best thing bout this is that i've to actually make a vow before i can really bring her back.
and this very sentence hit me hard--
"i brought it to life, and promise to make her my number one pal."
awww, so sweeet right?

In fact i've more than just a thanks,
but i dont know how to put them into words.
but one thing i know is that i'm grateful,
because i've you who love me so much.
♥missyoumuch

0125pm

2011-02-08T19:15:00.006+08:00

Photos overload,its all up in facebook alr.
i've no intention to upload any in here because its way toooooo many!

4days in Genting is way too long i could say.
besides the weather there was good, the rest is just average.
everywhere in the mall is way too crowded,
seems like most Singaporean get away from the town as well,
just feel as though I'm in Singapore still.
pretty much simple trip,
cause nothing much to do there,
and I'm not the kind into any rides,
whats more i can't even get into casino despite trying out all ways to sneak in, but attempt failed.
okay i must say the security guards there are really good and well trained.
one bad thing is that we spent most of the time eating and eating!
bad sign, which means i'm gonna spent ages to put down my weight again.
on a side note,thank goodness the company was good(:

exams coming!
FYP's deadline drawing nearer,
something i dread the most..........
this period gonna be really tough,
cause B wants me to have full concentration on my studies.
i've alot to work on it, i need to really do something bout it.
3 weeks, just 3 more weeks and i'm gonna spell freedom!
so time time, could you please pass faster?!
no no, at the same time i wish it slow down a little so that i could have more time to study.
arghh. what a contradiction. ):

tell me how can i not miss you,
when i can miss you the moment we bid goodbye...

0822pm

2011-02-02T22:31:00.002+08:00

Chinese New Year!!!! YAY i' so excited!!!
like real, omg i miss this excitement feeling like preparing for new year goodies, getting new year clothes, going relatives place for visting and all..
but i dont feel any this year, i don't feel excited at all, just thought its another holiday break.
and i dint get any new year clothes this year! ):
maybe its also because i'm leaving this town during CNY.
heading to genting with cousins and relatives for 4 days :D
but which also means 4 days i can't get to see her, i'm so gonna miss my BBBBBBBB for sure. ):
and please hope that my flu wont get worsen over there.

4days,
please be good.
i think i'm gonna miss one like mad,
but i'll enjoy myself there.
i hope one does too(:

1107pm

2011-01-30T19:52:00.002+08:00

it feels like i've so much things i wanna blog about, but when i open up this page, i've been hitting on the backspace key.
where should i start off with..

was it something good or bad?
i really don't know,
i just have this very shitty feeling the whole day.

FML~
i swear i cant construct any sentence with this complication in me.
nothing seems right, freak
)))))))))):

0804pm

2011-01-15T19:24:00.004+08:00

Go catch this awesome movie, love & other drugs!
& i swear Anne Hathaway(Maggie) is f.HOT!!!

had a great day on friday night,
its been long since i have this feeling.
don't wanna think much,
but smile because this new friend was jotted into my friend-list.(:

))))):
okay, i seriously got affected by this.
because it isn't something i want too.
sometimes even myself hate that i have this bad character, which is being too quiet towards people i don't really know.
sometimes i wish i was born a little more talkative, a little more outspoken, a little more daring..
many at times, i tried my best but to no avail i still get comments like this.. "you're too quiet"
I've my noisy and crazy side too, but but that's only when I'm with my close pals.
for i don't know why i have this very sucky behavior.
can someone just teach me how to change this , or can i go for a communication class?

and many times i thought this is the issue, the boundary between us.

0848pm

2011-01-05T01:33:00.005+08:00

What have i done to always be the one falling so hard.

The more i try,
the more i lose.
Everyday i wonder why,
why things go bad everytime i try.

I never knew until that moment how bad it could hurt to lose something you never really had.
all i can do is smile to pretend everything is okay,
but everytime i close my eyes,
i know it was just a lie.

i should just go into NEVERland

---------
on a happier note,
happypie's oficially 21, happybirthday(:

0209am

2011-01-02T02:50:00.002+08:00

"please be good to me,
i really want to be happy this year."

seriously i'm unsure about my new year resolution,
but a few that i really really WANT is to,
1) Get my diploma and graduate!
2) Get my desire high-pay job :D
3) ENJOY as much as i can!

thinking back,
i couldn't really recall what's really bad and what's really good.
but imma gonna bring the best of 2010 with me and allow the bad ones to stay as it is. (:
friends come and go, but glad enough the dear ones stay strong as usual.
hi to those new friends i've met along the way and thanks for those who once left a footprint in my life but never the word goodbye (:

P.S. 2011 will be sucha spending year! $.$
which means i must SAVE more, SPEND less.

010111,happyoneyearrmynewfriendhappypie(:

okay, toddlers love much♥
0312am

2010-12-27T01:59:00.003+08:00

BLANK.

i don't know how to handle this feeling of mine now.
nothing seems right,
nothing seems to be working the way i want,

so unlike myself,
Freak, i feel like screaming.

i guess i miss you extremely much more than usual.

0202am

2010-12-21T01:30:00.001+08:00

omg omg omg!
imma happy little kid now:D
i had one of my christmas wish list granted,
is to get my navel piercing done!!!!!!!!!!

on a side note,
i can't eat seafood, i can't drink alcohol, i can't do sit-up, i can't go swimming, i can't..............
&& i'm so gonna take good care of it cause its a naughty little fellow who needs extra care.

yay,
happy much, contented :DD

0135am

2010-12-18T00:40:00.001+08:00

fun time webby cam with my bitch my love my ASS,
she's superb biatch and annoying at times,
nah perhaps more like most of the time!
but yay i just love this girl track lots,
that sometimes i just feel like making her my GF!
our use-to-say-sentence,
if only..................we are together.....................
okay, crap! HAHAHA!

2 consecutively days of mahjong session indeed awesome!
a great catch up with ASS and the cliques.
i-we laugh and play like there's no tomorrow,
just as if a kid,
innocent pure happiness, i heart♥

so much so i wanna hurry graduate,
cause i seriously hate missing out so many of them during hectic school days.

counting down'
3more months to go.....................

0226am

2010-12-17T01:04:00.001+08:00

dear brain,

sorry for overloading you with thoughts of her.

dear tummy,
sorry for all the butterflies.

dear pillow,
sorry for all the tears.

dear heart,
sorry for all the damage.

dear me,
sorry for being head over heels in love with her.

dear you,
sorry for keeping you in my heart.

i read this somewhere,
and i totally feel it..
awww,
now i miss the one esp more.
just teach my heart how to unfollow you,
or teach my heart how to follow another you.
))):

0100am

2010-12-16T22:30:00.011+08:00

after-exam stress relief

-Holland.V
-Coffee Bean
-EwF
-Rapunzel
-Skyline
-Town-ed

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a day spend at GIANT with the loves♥
over load of daily necessities,
but i love supermart, hee

2010-12-12T02:29:00.007+08:00

All i want for Christmas is
THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

1)Navel Piercing
2)Hip Tattoo

): I want leh,
urge coming in like abc123..

0243am

2010-12-10T18:36:00.002+08:00

PHEW, its a great relief~

awesome,its TGIF!
i can finally rest a little.
this hectic week really sucks.
i barely have more than 2 hours of sleep everyday.
rushing for reports, assignments and studying for tests is really crazy.
24 hours a day is never enough,
at that point i really wish money can buy time!

i'm worried,
in fact very worried,
i know i've done extremely badly for today's common test paper.
even wishing for a miracle wouldn't help too.
blame myself but no one.
feeling very worst now.
))))))))))))))):

this weekend i'm so gonna stay focus and study for the killing paper on tuesday,
peeps dont ask me out okay):

0652pm

2010-12-09T00:02:00.000+08:00

2010-12-04T22:08:00.002+08:00

what my sunday and coming week will be...
H.E.T.I.C

Monday,
*Mobile Robotics Test
*Work

Wednesday,
*Work

Thursday,
*cGMP Presentation
*Submission of cGMP Report
*cGMP Test

Friday,
*Lab Test
*Pcon CommonTest
*Submission of WISP essay

&&
later i have to leave house for work at 3.20am!
which is about 5 hours from now.
FML i think i'm working w/o my friends )):

okay, at least i've something to look forward to after work is to have steamboat dinner at home with family♥♥

p.s. now my voice is oh-so-manly
1025pm

2010-12-02T14:53:00.002+08:00

S.I.C.K

i've been drinking bottles and bottles of water,
i've been using countless of tissues,
i've been in my bed for more than 14 hours...

i hate this feeling)):
feeling so uncomfortable,
flu, sore throat, whole body ache,
fever went up and down, 39degree!
on 2 days MC,
can't even go school & had to skip today's class test.
but i guess i'm returning back to school tomorrow,
don't like to skip lesson, can't catch up and its so troublesome have to do make up lesson..

oh gawd, thanks to the medicine, now i feel sleepy again...

p.s fever please subside
0301pm

2010-11-30T22:54:00.003+08:00

yuck so dumb of me~
i screwed up my previous blogskin,
my templates gone madness,
now i've no choice but to have a total change over.
still figuring though,
& whats worst is i spent my whole night figuring out and editing the template,
it's still under renovation.
sucks big time.

1102pm

2010-11-28T01:41:00.000+08:00

Wishes that the past can be changed.

I shouldn't be thinking about this at such a inappropriate time,
i've essay and report to write, test to revise, ahhh ):

I’m so sick and tired of this, maybe I should just stop thinking about it as a whole. And wait til the year end and hope for a better year coming up.

The past can’t be changed, we should just move on. But sometimes I really wish that it can be, there’s so many things that I would’ve done differently.

when the chances of me meeting her decreases to zero..
it really sucks,
0905pm

2010-11-27T23:08:00.003+08:00

Trying to put my feelings into words, but never does it works. Things get mixed up, jumbled along the way. Constantly thinking but it wont reach my lips. My voice... gone. Sometimes i really wish that by looking into someone's eyes and everything you want to say is right there. I really don't want to tell anyone anything, cause all i want is them to see it for themselves. Been feeling that i'm just going on and on about nothing. So tired, i need a hug, a shoulder to lean on...

heartstopbeatingforonce
1124pm

2010-11-25T21:05:00.004+08:00

School, work, project ,School, work, project, School, work, project, work, project, School, work, project, School, work, project, School, work, project, School, work, project, School, work, project, School, work, project, School, work, project, School, work, project, School, work, project, School, work, project, School, work, project, School, work, project, School, work, project, School, work, project, School, work, project, School, work, project, School, work, project, School, work, project, School, work, project,School, work, project, School, work, project, School, work, project, School, work, project,School, work, project,School, work, project,School, work, project.....

2010-11-24T00:26:00.000+08:00

Just a short wrap up of the awesome meet up with ASS & LITTLEST! :DD

---Ding Tai Feng,
we had the best xiao long bao:D
but its all about Shrimp, Pork Pork and Pork!

---Frolick!!!
Its never a miss whenever hit town:D

---Threesome Candy,
quite fascinated over the name of : one long thing. *laughs*

with this hectic life in this century,
everyone's busy with their own life,
it really aint easy to plan for a meet up.
soo soo i really do enjoy every moment even if its just a short catch up,
what's more ESP with those that's seeyou REAL REAL soon kind.
its really awesome, so love((:

p.s.
there's many many more i hadn't meet up with for superb long alr,
i miss them )):

0113am

2010-11-22T22:06:00.009+08:00

♥♥
♥♥♥♥
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
my craves every now and then :DD

&&
RITZ APPLE STRUDEL!!!!
i had it years ago,
been craving for it so madly luh,
yay finally i bought it today! :DD

see the rate of me snacking,
now i know why i'm soo FAT!!!! ):
ohhh gawrd
who's the creator of food,
tell me how to jian fei?!?!?!?!?

1052pm

2010-11-17T01:02:00.002+08:00

"If I never met you,I wouldn't like you.
If i didn't like you,I wouldn't love you.
If i didn't love you,I wouldn't miss you."

Inside me there are words waiting to come out,
but when i tried talking to you,
i know for those words will always stay in my heart-locked inside.

2010-11-14T17:51:00.007+08:00

its a raining day...
the weather is soooooo cooling~

on a side note,
can't resist the temptation of KOI, had a large cup of grassjelly milktea!! :DD

know what, so painful luh!! ):
i had a very bad experience today at work.. i thought my stomach was tough enough to take that spice, nevertheless it fail on me too or maybe its because of my breakfast that curry which cause my stomach to be super UPSET when i'm at work. how bad it was to be in pain and can't go to the toilet because i'm the only one in the store!! for 4 hours my stomach is acting like a washing machine and it seem so helpless because no one can help me attain the store!!! thank goodness i dint faint cause at that point i really feel like dying.

hur hur hur!

i'm becoming so FAT! )))))))))):

0633pm

2010-11-13T00:42:00.005+08:00

headed down to FLB Flea this late noon!!
okay, dint really have a great spent over there because of the crowd, the mess, and also partly because of rushing for time so ya, kinda disappointed. but its good enough at least i dint come back empty handed. managed to grab 2 tops and a highwaist short! :D and and not forgetting bout them having FROLICK booth!! though its only selling lychee flavour in a mini cup going for 2bucks, but it still ease my crave a little at least! (:

afterwhich took a bus back to meet ivan for studying session,

decided to head down to sunset grill for dinner and have the LEVEL's buffalo wing since i've been wanting to go like a gazillion years back. yay, called up ASS and made her joined us. my very first attempt LEVEL 10! i could say its spicy enough, at least i managed to eat at least 3 and i mean 3 pieces and not 3mouth, and not have a bite then surrender like what the two did! leaving the rest to me): i just hope i wont be camping inside the toilet, like how bad most of my friends went through. *crossfinger HAHA. i'm still hoping to have a taste of the level 30! sounds crazy uh, hahah but hey some of my friends actually managed to finish it okay! just curious what's on the cheft mind when he actually thought of making it until level 30?! did he even eat it and then camp in the toilet afterwhich? i wonder... *laughs

okay, mummy's nagging bout me not going to bathe yet!

alright, chaos and off to bathe:D

goodnight peeps!

p.s. gosh i think i feel the hotness in my tummy now!
0137am

2010-11-09T22:44:00.007+08:00

if i can just be a LITTLE MORE DETERMINE to not SNACK...
if i can just be a LITTLE MORE DETERMINE to eat LESSER....
if i can just be a LITTLE MORE DETERMINE to continue on my DIET plan...
IF I CAN JUST BE A LITTLE MORE DETERMINE, NO is MORE DETERMINE.............

i came to realise it isn't a good thing to start school at 9, the jam plus the rain is just like a double bitch. I got so shocked when i alight at jurong east and realised the whole platform is packed! i had to skip 5 trains before i managed to get squeeze in by the crowd. its as if everyone just left for the NDP's parade, thats how bad! -.- of cause i'm late, now i really see the problem of removal of the grace period though its only 15mins, but it really makes a big difference okay! all thanks to that IA student, really how dumb one can be.....
*ah shits, i'm being too mean, okay shuttup~

yay, i saw this superb HOT angmo girl in the bus this evening!!!
oh tell me which part of her is imperfect?!
after school, headed over to SP then to RP and catch POL-ITE match with JAS and KY(:
for i dont know what reason, there's always so many so many thoughts running through in me as the match is going on. you and you, i still remember how i always get excited when i know you'll be on court, how i always cheer inside me when you score, how i always got anxious when you got knocked down, how i always........................... *smile

tomorrow is only wednesday,
sigh like a most dread day of the week.
&& its only the 3rd week, i'm starting to have-a-hard-time choosing my clothes.
oh genie, can you fulfil me with a total change over of wardrobe? ):

on a side note,
my rings will be mailed out tomorrow! *H-A-P-P-Y!! :DD
1121pm

2010-11-08T01:20:00.002+08:00

Now i see the difference,
just a little effort from someone means so much,
but it took so much for another and yet it meant so little.
What hurts the most is once being so close,

as when the night falls,
you're stil the one i thought the most.

2010-11-07T00:34:00.002+08:00

Back to school on sat to do our FYP,
got kinda distracted after a while and its a "forced" deal! i made them webcam with me! :D

i catched unstoppable at newly renovated yishun GV (:
okay, like finally that OH-SO-OLD seats are all changed! *phew no more stinky stink ones.
and whats good is finally night activity can resume again, if not its really pathetic during that period of renovation in yishun, because the pool in OCC closed down too!

yay i should be turning in like real soon,

cause i needa wake up at 5am since its 1.11am now!

but the porridge i just had one hour ago is not digested yet!
oh gosh, i hate supper, i'm starting to have much much more weight gain...... )):

redotsme
0113am

2010-11-06T00:36:00.005+08:00

PINKAVALI night at PLAY was awesome as usual!

The DJ got us falling in love! music was awesome! :D

but but of cause minus of that OMG freaking loooooooooooonnnnnnnnnng queue!

but well not too bad, luckily my LITTLEST was right in the front of the queue and i managed to cut queue!! and and another bad thing to have high tight in the middle cause the queue of the loo was way too bad as well! and again LITTLEST my saviour of the night:D another bad thing was to have your bags with you cause its a serious disturbance, you know how irritating it was! hahah, so i ended chucking in on the floor! thats why i'd always prefer to be there early, though it may sound rather kia su, but in order not to have so many hiccups for the night, i thought why not? (:
&& my membership card is taking way too long to be ready! )):

only few shots of the night.

because got a little tipsy & forgotten to take more pics. *pouts ):

YAY that's my LITTLEST!! :D

on a side note, i've got MARBLE's peach cream and blackberry yogurt to eat at home! yay! my ladyboss is superb nice i swear! :D

you're so cute, you're so hot.
i know i'm not your type!

HAHAHAH!

p.s i slept for 12hours on deepavali...

0107am

2010-11-02T22:58:00.002+08:00

awwww simplyouandme i missssss you like mad hell!!
i'm finally back after i've lost touch in this page for friggy loooooooong!!!
i nearly deleted it, thank god i trust that i'll be back in no time,
and yay! just have this sudden urge of blogging, but i have no nuts of what i wanna blog about too, but heck i'll still blablabla all the way, i know! heee. :D

yay, school has really been a bitch for this beginning weeks i swear):
because i'm still trying hard to tune back and get use to school life when i've spent the 7months back enjoying of not having to do tutorials and projects! not much time, i've to make it a quick one cause its the last sem alr and i really don't wish to have a sudden upset and later blame and curse like mad for all i would. so buck up yvonne! put aside those little devil thoughts first! && FYP-tutorials-lectures, i'm so gonna make you my best GF for this last sem, but first but please be a sexy one okay! :B

oh yay! anyway, i'm enjoying my work in MARBLE!! :D
though, its kinda taking up a rather large part of my life now. but fret not, i'll have to be a extremely smart and careful schedule planner for my own now.
on a ligther note, the icecream is one bitch too, cause it plays a part in my weight gain!!))):

ohhh its 23:48 alr!!
okay, time to hit the sack before i have a mad rush in the morning.
p.s i have to wake up at 5 again!
gooooooodnighty:DD

redotsme,
1150pm.

2010-06-20T02:44:00.005+08:00

i want my official sun tanning session soon soON SOON!!! been postponing it since weeks ago, and we gave it a missed again this morning): doubleASS is just too tired too lazy to get outta bed. beacuse facebook, twitter, world cup is a real distraction which took away my beauty sleep and kept me awake til late late night!

supposing was to start on my final report, but as expected it wasn't a productive one. i thought starbucks was a nicer place to chill out, whats more with a Javachip Frappe :D
webcam with ASS as usual,
hahahha. many fat face!

& i finally went ICEKIMO! Banana Coffee Crunch,Blueberry Cheesecake & Wild Strawberry with waffle spells awesome! :D

i always thought if only i can eat anything and everything without putting on weight, how great!! and i swear i'm so gonna find a day to just go around and taste every good food!:D but okay, its just a wild thought i know):

i seriously seriously seriously hope i'd get a reply this time round. i hope her effort helps:D

MJ again later,
okay goodnight :D

in a moment like this.
0415am

2010-06-16T21:53:00.003+08:00

i've lost touch with this blog again.
sudden thought of blogging once again.
& i hope i wont be lazy again.
hahahhaa.

first thing first,
I finally pass my TP!!!! :D
okay, know it wasn't a big deal actually but to me was actually something awesome. because i can finally drive on my own! :D thanks to all the encouragements and my little determination that help me pull through that tough period, where i've nearly given up on it because of the first few failures and many many many complains about my instructor! i don't deny he's attitude and whatsoever that i can pin point on really annoy and piss me off many times. but still i thought he's effort for teaching was to be appreciated still.
but i've yet to have any car to drive, so ya..):

its only half way though intern, and i'm already dreading work like mad as the day pass. i so wanted it to end faster and go back to school!! i miss school soo much but minus out the exam period of cause. interim report wasn't a good one, because not much effort was put in and it was way too last minute. i know): so i WILL start my final report earlier, and i mean EARLIER. don't want any more last minute work, because its really bullshit only.uhh, okay. at least my smelly is going through with me, yes she said that! :D
i think i need a cup of espresso a day at least, even if it only helps in keeping me a little awake..

really appreciate the thoughts and surprises. because of that little phrase by me, your action touched me. thanks(:

we had that fear, that protection towards oneself, towards another. but wanting to be daring this time round, because of that sweet little quote, because of that chance that was given again and again. never can any give any assurance, but only to be giving the best and to be true with everything it was already more than anything else. and i always believe, everything comes with a reason(:

slowly getting used of sleeping alone in the night now, but still miss those nights with my dearJL.
those gossips, those chats, those words we share before we really bid goodnight and knock off.
okay, a minute of staying here equals to a minute less of sleeping time,
alright goodnight world,
i need a shut eye now because its only THURSDAY tomorrow...):

in a moment like this.
1102pm.

2010-04-24T02:05:00.003+08:00

Math tells us three of the saddest love stories: Of parallel lines, who were never meant to meet. Of tangent lines, who were together once then parted forever. And of asymptotes, who could only get closer and closer, but could never be together.

the last 24th,
wanted it to be a different one,
but end up its back in here again..
fouryears, its neither long nor short..

Never would i know how amazing fate brought us along, when i look back and realize how we got to know each other and only until when we literally started talking and all. i'll smile...

Dream is something beautiful at times only. People said its sweet, its nice and beautiful to dream of that special one. Yes it does only when you could still recall clearly how beautiful that scene was. But because for the very moment when you woke up and realize that everything was just a dream, it turn out only to be disappointment. And i thought it wasn't that beautiful anymore..

I've stand up and fall a couple of times. It doesn't matter much though, cause whats more is that i know i'm growing, learning to be stronger each and everyday. Didn't know those smiles in the past would eventually become tears every now and then. I miss that pure old school days. That strong urge of wanting to go school every morning, wanting recess to last a little longer and wanting lesson to end quickly. For all it was the presence of you. So much that i miss the past, so much that i didn't wish the changes with time.

i once thought years pass by, things will change, time will prove everything. but i know its never that way. i don't know how much i've teared, i don't know how much disappointment i had before, but i do remember how much the care was given to me. & i always do appreciate even the tiny littlest things you did.

Everyone knows that letting our love one go is another form of love as well. To see the one you love to be happy, is everything that matters most. But words are always easy said. Because everyone knows the more you love, the hardest it is to let go.. But read this, "Letting go doesn't mean giving up, it means moving on. Because we are forced to realize that letting go means accepting things that cannot be & it means maturing and moving on." It is one of the hardest things a person can do, but no matter how hard you still have to fight yourself to do so. Moving on, is a simple thing, but what it leaves behind is hard..

For all the chances that i could tell you what i want, i didnt..
Because until now i still feel butterflies when i know i got to see you.
Because Lovely,you'll never be replaced..

For i always thought the one is the most fortunate girl ever..
promise you'll be good,
because i know everything gonna be so fine and good.

0214am

2010-03-29T19:06:00.003+08:00

life's a bitch..
)))):

i hate 2010, not my year,
nothing goes smoothly at all, & i mean ALL...
its only march, i wonder how many times i've teared, & i mean literally CRY.
okay, im just useless i thought.

everywhere, everything don't seems to fit me in.
where should i divert my attention to then?
no one's here,
not him, not her, not you...

i feel like a lost soul,
just knock me out,
wake me up when the year ends...

0712pm

2010-03-21T00:57:00.002+08:00

I don't know what to think or how to feel.
But i know i should not be here.
As much as i want to be selfish and hold you back...

"I’ve found that it’s a good thing to go through heartache at one point or another in your lifetime. Not the petty, childhood heartache, but the kind we’ve experienced. See, when you get to the healing part of this, you will have so much love to share with someone else. You will be able to appreciate someone in ways even you cannot understand. You will be so much stronger than you were before. I know how much this sucks right now and i know it seems unfair, but when it’s all over and done with, this will all make sense. All the pain you are going through at this moment will eventually teach you some of the greatest lessons in life."

but you went away,
0102am

2010-01-31T02:43:00.003+08:00

to foresee, first you have to let go.
MIXED feeling.

serious insomnia...
i so wanted to get under the sun!!
but i decided to give it a missed. ):

how wrong it would become?
pretty much the same.
this time, don't wish to create a new mess again.
confusion is getting confused.
not nice at all...
my heart doesn't catch the pace of my life.

will pray,
things will be fine.
smiles(:

in a moment like this.
0451am

2010-01-19T22:04:00.002+08:00

in the end, still feel upset,
if only i don't always pin so high hopes...

i dk why i recalled everything about us again,
i miss the times i had butterflies in my stomach when our eyes meet.
i miss the pure old days we used to have.
i miss the time you walk me home.
i miss.....
.
...
......
..........
.............
..................
..............................

i wish i could shout aloud, telling what i feel.
i wish i could hold you tight and don't have to let go..
i hate to get jealous.
at times, i wish i don't have any feelings,
maybe life would be much easier..

why always about the impossibles?
no turning back,
1015pm

2010-01-08T23:22:00.005+08:00

as long as...
it doesn't matter anymore.

if only i can have you back tomorrow,
if only i can lose the pain and sorrow,
i would do just anything,
cause i know, i'll never.....

i've lose control, not letting any emotions gets hidden underneath.
i'm letting out every single thing, just to hold you back.
i don't know how much i've said, how much i've teared.
my mind went, snap-blank! when i heard you saying you'll be the one.
cause you know how much i'm afraid of.....

it's not simple, it's not easy.
i've understand everything,
i'm clear with everything.
no matter how selfish, how reluctant i can be,
its the fact that i've prepared to accept.
& i've promised to be fine, to be okay.
i will, and i have to!!
but its hard, REALLY! )):

i'm sorry, i never wanted my trouble to become yours too.
i'm sorry, even until now you still have to worry about me,
i'm sorry, i can't be as generous even until now,
and i'm sorry for all the sorry.

p.s:you don't have to be the one to love me, cause i'll be the one doing that.

play repeats: Jessica Simpson; i wanna love you forever.
1221am

2010-01-06T01:02:00.002+08:00

the nightmare i fear the most.
leave me in this world alone.
don't seems to be able to walk out.
no use guiding me anymore.
seriously aimlessly.
i said, its okay, its alright.
i'll be fine someday, will be stronger than usual.
but currently its still not.
i said it doesnt matter, but in fact i'm not that strong actually.
cant't help, can't help, really can't help.
in fact it feels like it died a thousand million times....
what if now i say i neeeed you?
))))):

no longer anymore,
0134am

2009-12-26T23:22:00.002+08:00

wanted to announce my blog dead.
readers might have already walked out from here.
been really busy to even come in here.

i wanted to believe, i wanted to believe what you've told me.
i've been telling myself its not what i think, what others said.
because that time i've made you upset.
that's why i wanted to deny the "fact" and to believe every thing comes with a reason.
but why did i managed to find out the puzzles which are meant to join together and the possibilities?
i don't mind where i stand, i dont mind the actual fact.
but i'm just upset because you didnt come clear to me or rather its not a need actually.
but i feel really bad, upset of myself.
cause i'm helpess when i know i have to face the fact.
i know i have to be contented with what i have NOW!
yes indeed i am.
was really overwhelmed when i heard that.
but constantly i would still question myself, would everything still be like the past or things would change to better or worst?

a date to remember and a step deeper.
everything is all because i love you and i feel so helpless..

in a moment like this.
1154am

2009-10-09T19:05:00.006+08:00

okay, i said will be back soon(:

bear with this long post i'm having..
thought of uploading all those overload photos,
but cause its too overload that i'm still having a hard time uploading it on FB.
so i'll give it a miss here.

4D3N Cameron trip, i thought it was better than expected.
fun and laughter is the best medicine to forget anything for the time being.
sudden urge of wanting school to reopen. FIRST TIME!
perhaps, because of the clique and company.
i wish coming class chalet will be a pretty good one as well(:

been telling myself this,
running is the only exercise to slim down.
but i'm starting to hesitate again.
because i don't want my carves to be big!
why must everything have GOODs and BADs at the same time?

sitting alone at the pool side for that few minutes,
looking at the determination and enthusiasm from them.
that familiar place i used to be, but not anymore..
flashing back those memories, those times..
the regrets i'm always having.
IF ONLY i'm determine enough,
IF ONLY i don't mind so much!
only till then i realised i seriously love & miss everything about it.

i've finished up alot of korean drama,
starting a new drama again.
i want to learn korean, but IS i got french ):

sometimes my heart skip a little bit faster, but sometimes it doesn't..
why?

in a moment like this.
0849pm

2009-09-26T01:40:00.000+08:00

i hate packing bag for holiday...
it took me hours and yet i'm not done!

working at sheraton this weekend.
2 continuous long working day.
&& needa report to school early in the morning on monday!
who is that nice to drive me to school. anyone? HAHA.

TIRED!!
i wanna get a rest now.
only 4 hours of sleep.
goodnight world.
sweet dream tonight again, please (:

photos overload already~
but FB is updated!
will be back SOON!
((:

missmissMISS you esp....
0336am

2009-09-25T00:05:00.003+08:00

disappointed!!
in fact, soo much...

it seems like i'm being the nosey one.
maybe i shouldn't be bothering so much at all.
but why am i still bothering?
why do i get affected when i learn to know the truth?
why is the trust always broken?
i thought that all these while it had changed.
but i guess i was wrong.

maybe i'm assuming everything here.
& i really wish it was just my assumption.
please tell me i'm wrong about it. '

this time, i'm really leaving my hands off it~

2009-09-24T22:33:00.002+08:00

recalling is the best thing on earth(:

why am i not blogging for a month.
when's the last post before this.
& when is it now..

sometimes we let affection go unspoken,
sometimes we let our love go unexpressed,
sometimes we can't find words to tell our feelings,
Especially towards those we love the most...

in a monent like this.
everything went blank..

1228am

2009-08-24T16:10:00.005+08:00

❤
the 24th.
i miss you.
It's all i have to say..

2009-08-19T16:44:00.002+08:00

HUSH HUSH, my all time favourite song for now.

each and every word meant so much.
i don't deny it affect me, in fact soo much.
though everything is as expected.
but i know of all the difficulties and reasons.
i've learn to accept it, slowly..

i know i couldn't seem to focus on anything the whole day.
i know my driving practice today was way bad.
i know regardless of the countless scolding and remainder i still made the same old mistake.
i know i hadn't been studying the whole day.
i know my mood turn upside down.
but i dont know what exactly i should do now.

my eyelid seems so heavy...
for everything it would affect me that much,
is when the moment you've became so so important to me.

in a moment like this.
i miss you.
0450pm

2009-08-04T00:48:00.000+08:00

When I'm lonely and on my own, I think about it from time to time

Happy 19th birthday huimin (:
i miss you alot!!

Anchem test 2 today,
screwed up once again...
been staying in school or staying up late for projects.
counting down for all projects and presentation to end.
final exams round the corner,
i've not yet stared on my revision.
lab practical test tomorrow,
and i've no idea what to study.
i'm really dead...

shopping spree with AND in town.
okay, i know i'm spending abit too much this month.
but at last i've settle down with a desired tote bag(:
i'm stopping for the time being.
no blogshop, no shopping, nothing new.

not enough sleep again,
have to dread myself out of bed in a few hours time.
goodnight..

in a moment like this.
0132am

2009-08-01T23:01:00.000+08:00

Don't remember it, don't sing along..

mentally and physically tired.
projects and exams.
projects and exams..
i'm on the verge of giving up....

Now looking back over the years,
And whatever else that appears.
I got to got to let you down.
But in an hour I will change my mind..

I remember I cried,
Never wishing to hide the tears.
Despite encouragement,
No words were ever spoken.

totally MS.
i dont know why.
Left unattended..
sigh..

in a moment like this.
1147pm

2009-07-24T23:42:00.001+08:00

240709
Happy Birthday TEH YU SHAN!! (:
Happy Birthday Daddy(:

i feel life is so so boring...
okay, i missed canoepolo alot )):
just everything, especially titans.
sigh..

Some of us think holding on makes us strong, but sometimes it is letting go.
I wish I didn’t wish so hard.
but sometimes i wish i could be a little selfish..
try,cry,why try?
cause its twentyfour again..

2009-07-22T20:13:00.002+08:00

22nd of July marks a special date...

The longest solar eclipse of the 21st century.
Cool isn't it? hahha.
but Singapore missed it!

turned to be a memorable date for one.
only word to describe.
happyhappyhappy((:
like what i always wished for, one to be happy. (:

sometimes,
i just wish i was that lucky little girl....

in a moment like this.
0827pm

2009-07-18T23:08:00.003+08:00

Goodbye is only truly painful if you know you'll never say hello again.

a year and one month since you left us..
it just holds me in fond remembrance.
i miss the presence of you in the house.
i miss the dote from you.
i hope you heard all our prayers.
&& i seriously miss you ALOTalot, ahgong..

my diet plan always fail ):
who has strong determination? i seriously need them..
i think i've put on weight, ALOT! ):
i've started my 2days a week jogging session. (:
but only been though a week.
am looking forward to the next one,
not forgetting about my company((:
perseverance, i need!

work tomorrow.
lots of projects left undone.
i need more than 24hours..

time passes,but not fast enough.
I try to be strong,but i'm not that tough.
When i feel the presence of you, it will be all right.
but my heart aches,when it comes to night.
goodnight,
when all the world is sleeping, but you know i'm still thinking of you..

in a moment like this.
0103am

2009-07-12T01:36:00.002+08:00

we went to the budget budget 10dollar KTV today.
you don't seems to know its actually 10 bucks net.
and there's nothing much to grumble about the system there.
so... i guess we'll not be visiting kbox that often again.
hahahaha.

next up, steamboat again!
sinful to the max....
a month or more of jogging session to cover up soon soon soon.

i've been lacking of sleep recently.
work tomorrow again.
alright.
i'm turning in.
Goodnight world.
Goodnight people.
Goodnight to you(:

& i couldn't believe i think of you the whole day....

in a moment like this.
0143am

2009-07-07T19:13:00.004+08:00

mixed feelings i had..
i did everything alone today...

i sat at the 1 person seat in bus.
playing those familiar music,
many things running through my head,
i couldn't control once again...

i had cinnamon melts.
thought some sweet stuff could help,
but it doesn't seems helpful at all.

i went for retail therapy.
& i spent almost a hundred.
i nearly grab a few more.
but i controlled...

today's weather is neither good.
what's for tomorrow?
i wonder........

in a moment like this.
1101pm

2009-07-03T00:27:00.002+08:00

I hate the ulcer !!
it hurts like ........................

i finished watching BOF!
i love all the actors & actresses.
the songs as well.
double thumbs up!

i knew i gonna flunk.
tell me what's the next step ):

over to meet ASS after school.
i swear my phone's cam was really bad ):
but otherwise, everything was alright,
what's more its red.

busy schedule for tomorrow.
driving in the morning, i hope no last min cancellation again!
tanning with ASS in the noon, like finally!((:
ndp preview with the cliques in the evening.

i want a long holiday......
i miss thursday night.....
next week?? (:

goodnight people.
i'm turning in.
i just want a sweet sweet dream...
will you?
imissyou

in a moment like this.
0109am

2009-06-14T21:57:00.003+08:00

i just managed to change my password,
because i've forgotten my password..........

common test is over.
but i know i ain't going to do well again.
due to my not productive studying everyday...
i've always told myself not to have any regrets,
but yet, time and again i repeat the same old mistake.

2weeks of holiday,
& most of the days are for working slots.
but its okay, cause i'm looking at the positive side (:

a long list of to do list/to buy list is awaiting for me.
an apple for dinner, i do hope it helps..

so many so many things happen within month, within weeks.
not to mention anything anymore.
i'm moving on together as the clock ticks.

in a moment like this,imu
1036pm

2009-05-27T01:18:00.002+08:00

utterly speechless now.
just a word SORRY....................

"come to me if you need me, i'll be there for sure for you(:"
thanks for this sentence.
it just meant so much.

in a moment like this.
0127am

2009-05-24T02:05:00.004+08:00

school's a boo.
been dozing off every now and then in school.
projects and projects, one after another.
common test is coming, yet i have not start my revision.
i've always wanted a productive revision after school, but failed until now.
i just need a little more determination, cause it seriously helps.

confusion...
irresponsible...
a total mess one had created yet leaving it uncleared.
a total selfishness none can tolerate.
a countless excuses and reason one can come out with.
apology is the only word one can say.

a blink, its back to 24th.....
i'm turning in, goodnight world.

in a moment like this.
0227am

2009-05-08T22:56:00.002+08:00

i finally got the answer i yearned to know for years..

bring me a time machine.
by seeing things differently at the outer,
but taking every single observation,
you then realise, nothing changes.

if only i could control, i wouldn't want to be.
i also wish i could, but god knows i just couldn't.

in a moment like this.
1227am

2009-05-05T23:19:00.002+08:00

i abhor that selfishness in me..

if only i realised it.
if only i can understand myself.
if only i were a little more determine.
if only i can handle things properly.
if only i was the past me.
if only i dont have to say if only.

ASS, i want meet up!!!

in a moment like this.
1133pm

2009-04-28T23:40:00.002+08:00

Yvonne have been out everyday and she got school!(AWW)
That's why she don't have time to blog.(PARTLY LAZINESS TOO)
I'm a nice person so i helped her.

Saturday
She had race @ bedok, after which mahjong and homed!

Sunday
She went T3 to have her virgin popeye chicken and did some colouring.
Went over to Ikea, she played cooking in the kitchen(S)
Lastly had meatball and soup!

Monday
SHE PLAYED L4D!!

Tuesday
She had K box with cousins, and Astons for dinner!

BABY GOOD LUCK FOR YOUR BTT TOMOR!

2009-04-14T23:19:00.002+08:00

it got me really affected.
once again!
the same feeling just like how they object me being in CP.
but i swear this time round its worst.
i don't understand how they look at things, especially one.
at times i just feel that adults are selfish!
i couldn't control that night,
cause i have too much pending thoughts.
i didnt know how and what i could do,
but thankfully i had both wonderful cousins.
not forgetting B and ASS.

i pray and pray and pray....
things to turn out the way i want...

in a moment like this.
1138pm

2009-04-11T14:11:00.003+08:00

i remembered the last year of today..
that evening...

B,
happy 1 month(:

in a moment like this.
0211pm

2009-04-09T13:28:00.011+08:00

2D1N kampong chalet was great, especially with the great company.
i've photos overload.
but i'm kinda lazy to upload all here.
so i'll skip some.
however i'm done with all , but its over at facebook(:

its been 3weeks, i hadnt spoke a word to mummy.
its the first time.
i wonder when will i start the first move.

mahjong session for continuous of 3 days.
i took a break today,
but not B and JL.

play tonight?
perhaps..

in a moment like this.
0348pm

2009-04-05T00:31:00.003+08:00

HELLO EVERYBODY!
I JUST BATHE OUT.
SO COOLING. SO SHIOK.
IM GOING TO WATCH MOVIES LATER.
BYEBYE.

updated photos(:

2009-03-31T23:28:00.004+08:00

met up with B and ASS, & loiter around west side.
over to boon lay way to collect the pay and to return the uniform.
trained back to bukit batok, B went for a hair cut.
after which, i started the non stop saying of B's hair super short.
then headed down to jurong point.
both claimed to buy the durian when they saw it at the fair price.
i swear i hate the smell of durian!
after much complaining and saying.
they still bought it, & guess what?
its a treat from me!
of cause thats of no choice. HAHA.
bused down to jurong side for prawn fishing.
was bored after awhile, cause 3hours we caught non!
bused back to yishun.
both had their favourite curry chicken for dinner at foodcourt.
& backed home.
work tomorrow with ASS(:

i hadn't been talking to mummy for days already..

in a moment like this.
1236am

2009-03-30T22:17:00.008+08:00

HELLO, I FAILED MY BTT TODAY MORNING ^^
MET UP WITH MYGIRL, WENT TO MYGIRL'S AHMA HOUSE TODAY.
THERE WAS A SUPER CUTE BABY, SUPER!
BUT I THINK MY POTENTIAL TO BE A NANNY IS 0%.
HAD DINNER WITH MYGIRL AND ARK CAR LI.
TRAINED HOME, AND I SLEPT THROUGH OUT LIKE A PIG.
BATHED AND WENT TO AHMA HOUSE FOR DINNER.
EAT AGAIN, LIKE A PIG.
BACK HOME, NUA-ING LIKE A PIG.
I'M REALLY LIKE A PIG. (^(oo)^) LOVES.

AND :( I SHRED LIKE A SHREDDED CHICKEN NOW.